Coming soon – Patreon

I hope you all had a wonderful Samhain! A few days after the holiday my son and I got sick. I’ve been lounging on the couch wondering if I will ever feel human again. Yesterday I felt like I had energy again so I assume we are almost through it. Fingers crossed.

This downtime let me do some thinking. I’ve been going hard since August, between traveling, family stress,  work stress, new job duties, and crazy schedules. My body needed the rest. I also started to work on my oracle deck. Years ago Sarah told me I should make a tarot deck and I pondered how to make that a reality. In the end I decided to start with an oracle deck.

I have a few images started and an idea of how I want the deck to look, but I am going to need to focus on it. I also do well with outside pressure and deadlines, so by talking about it here I am now going to be even more determined to work on it. Motivating myself is the first step.

Long time readers of my blog have seen examples of my photography, so I hope that those of you who know my work are excited about what I could create.

So to help me with this I have decided to start a Patreon account. For those who aren’t aware, Patreon accounts allow other people to pledge a certain amount each month to the artist. There are usually rewards for each tier of pledge. I’ve created a few rewards that I hope are inspiring.

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I will still blog here, but my deeper posts on witchcraft will be locked behind a paid account. I will still run my free Wicca 101 online class occasionally as well.

This allows me to make some money to help fund my Oracle deck. I know the pagan world is full of a weird vibe about people being paid for their work. Let’s be honest though, if you have something of value it is fair to be compensated for it. Many authors struggle with the idea of writing a book and being accused of “selling out”, tarot readers are asked to lower their prices and there is a general sense that what we have to offer is not worth paying for. It really is time for that idea to go away. We do have items/talent/skills that are worth something. You do you. And sometimes doing you means figuring out different ways to help pay the bills.

I hope that people want to come be part of the journey with me! I am nervous and excited!

 

 

 

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Fiction Friday!

Is this a thing? Like throwback thursday? Do we have a fiction friday? If not, then why not? There are so many stories out there waiting to be told.

Several years ago I wrote stories. When I started out they were pretty terrible, but over the years my writing style grew. It still needs work, and like all crafts, it will constantly evolve. Every so often a story springs into my head and I can either write it down or let it move on.

I am trying to get back into my creative habits so when this one came whispering into my head this week I decided to let it flow. So here we go, a random witchy ficlit. A tiny little tale, that might grow into something else. Or maybe this is it. In either case, enjoy.

Faith

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The wooden box sat on her bookshelf.

She had waited until the moon and stars were in the correct alignment and then very carefully picked the box up and carried it to her altar. From another box she pulled four small candles and began to inscribe runes and sigils in the white wax. Some for protection, some for aid in seeing visions, and some to guide her magick.

With reverence she unfolded a black velvet cloth and spread it on the altar. Each candle was placed in a corner. Her incense and other candles were lit and set in their appropriate place. Her note book and pen were placed within easy reach; she made sure the door was closed and locked then turned back to the wooden box.

She opened the lid and picked up the small set of tongs that were sitting in an insert of the lid. They were silver, with soft felt wrapped around the tips. Like a miniature set of cooking tongs, except wrapped so that they would not scratch the item they would carry.

She slid them back into the box and with care picked up the gemstone. It was heavier than she remembered, but she was able to move it slowly from its home and placed it on the velvet cloth.

The gem sat quietly, its many facets twinkling in the dim light. She lit the four candles, whispering words of power as she moved the match from each wick. When the fourth was lit she sat back, took a deep breath, and then stared at the gem.

Light from the spelled candles hit each face and shot around the room. Her third eye opened and struggled against the brilliance for a moment before accepting it. As the crystal focused its power, visions began to pour in. Vertigo swept into her, but she let go and fell into it. With that moment of acceptance, the universe opened up around her.

Much later the candles had melted down. As the last one went out the crystal went quiet. She blinked and sat bewildered as her mind began to process all she had witnessed. She blindly reached for the pen and notebook next to her. Once the pen was in her hand she began to write. Pages and pages were filled before she felt grounded in this reality again.

Carefully, the crystal was moved back to its box. The silver tongs were slipped back into their sleeve. Everything was cleaned up, and, with a prayer of thanks, she headed to bed.

 

 

Samhain prep

Samhain is just around the corner. I feel a bit unprepared. October is always a month where I go inwards, but this month it feels like there has been more reflection than usual. My boss has asked if I am ok and I explained I am really deep this month. Part of that is probably the lack of sleep, but I think with so much going on in the world my brain needed a vacation to process.

I have managed to get a few things in order, I’ve made eye appointments, dentist appointments and even booked a self-care day off. My creativity has been ramping up, but I haven’t had the energy to actually put those ideas into motion. This month has been about planning and plotting.

I did get a few items crafted for the store on the weekend and I got some more Halloween costume bits finished.

I will have ornaments posted in the store starting in November. I hope people enjoy them. felt owl ornaments I also have a Halloween sale on the Little Familiars in the shop. Starting today through Sunday they will be 15% off.  If you have had your eye on one, now is the time to grab it!

I hope to get the house cleaned up and organized this week, we plan to move our desk into another room and then maybe we will have a writing space again.

With a little one Halloween will be busy. There are a few things I will still take care of on the 31st, but we will do our ancestor meal and any family Samhain celebrations on November 1st. This will give me two days to do family and spiritual things. I think this blend will also make sure I can enjoy it all and not feel rushed.

Once the little one is in bed on the 31st, I will redo our house wards. I actually go out and walk our property and smudge and cleanse it. Then I will go to each area and redo the ward for it. I will also leave an offering out for the spirits of the land in thanks for their protection.

I always have an ancestor altar set up and then on November 1st we will have a meal and set a place for the ancestors. I still have to figure out what we will do for our meal, but I have a feeling it will be a stuffed squash.  Samhain is also when I will banish the things I want to remove from my life and do work to bring in new energy and ideas for the coming year.

And on the 31st I will bring in my oracle cards to work. Everyone likes to pull a card and talk about it all day. At home I will do my own tarot and oracle readings to see what is coming this winter. altar with oracle cards

What is your plan for Samhain? Do you celebrate on October 31st or November 1st? Do you have family traditions you follow? Let me know in the comments, I would love to hear from you!

 

Money Magick

Sometimes life is tough. This world runs on money and there are times when that is in short supply. I know we are more blessed then some. We both have full-time jobs, and while my husband’s job isn’t great, I at least make a decent amount and have wonderful health insurance. Not everyone is that lucky.

Still, we live paycheque to paycheque. I have student loans in Canada to still pay, and while some say “But you don’t live there anymore, why do you care?” I care because it is my debt and because the person who is a co-signer on that loan still lives there. It would really screw them up if I suddenly stopped paying it.  So every month we scrimp together some cash to pay that bill along with all the other bills.

Daycare and diapers adds up. We have other debts out there that we are still trying to figure out how to pay. Yet, when I start to really feel like things are going to be terrible the Goddess gives me a little hope. Someone will buy another tarot reading. Someone will purchase a custom. All the money I make in my store I use towards my Canadian bill. That means we have a bit more cash here for something else.

The kindness of others also goes a long way. When I had to rush home to see my family because of a medical issue I was super stressed. I asked for guidance and the Goddess and God helped me find a super cheap flight. Then, out of the blue I was gifted a cheque in the amount of my flight. People around me care. They see the struggle and did what they could to help. I was told it was in appreciation of all I do for them all. Community is a thing of beauty. It doesn’t matter what faith you are, compassion is a language everyone knows. I won’t lie, they made me cry.

Prayers are wonderful, when community can help it is great,  but sometimes we need to do a little extra work ourselves.

On that note I thought I would share a bit of magick…

If you have time to let a spell slowly build, then I always start any magick on the Dark Moon. As the moon grows to full, the spell builds up. Then by the Full Moon it has usually come to fruition.

I add cinnamon to my spells to give it a little extra kick. Cinnamon is also seen as a spice that brings in money so that also helps.

When I see a coin on the sidewalk I pick it up. This is a tiny gift from the universe, accept it. Every bit can help.

Create a spell trigger. Make up a mantra, phrase or something else that will remind you of your spell. Then write it out and put it somewhere you will see it. Or create a phrase you can use as a password and change that so every time you type it in you are putting more energy out there. Set alarms and when they go off, repeat your mantra or think about the spell.

Use your daily journal as another way to add energy. Write out your goals, write your mantra, and visualize the success of your spell as you do this.

Remember to take a moment. Thank the Gods for what they have helped provide to you. Think about the blessings you have. Sometimes we get so lost in what we need we forget to pause and enjoy what we have.

Best of luck! I’d love to hear any little things you do to try to bring in money magick!

Take back the fierceness

I’ve been following the social media accounts of many strong women. They are inspiring, so much passion and fierceness. Sometimes I think “I used to be like that, what happened?” After much pondering I’ve decided I don’t want to say that anymore. I’ve decided to take back my fierceness.

I know part of it was age. As I got older I lost a bit of fire. And that was good. I used to have a bit too much passion and it was an out of control wildfire. I wouldn’t take the time to actually think through what was coming out of my mouth, I didn’t do my research fully, and I let mama bear drive my emotions. I slowed down in my late 20s- 30s and got my emotional feet under me. I am happy with that change.

The other part was dealing with the judgement and discrimination when I moved to the USA. Suddenly, I was considered too inappropriate, too loud, too strange, I showed too much skin, I  had crazy hair… so many things. I let it wear me down. Part of that was my stubborn nature, I was like “Well fine, I’ll be boring” but I got over that. Part of it was dealing with a totally different community than I was used to. I am someone who adapts, so I tried to blend in more to the people I was meeting. The midwest is more conservative than the west coast and so some of my flamboyant nature was stamped down.

I was put through an emotional trial with some stuff that went on in our life. I struggled to fit in, I let fear run my brain with all this crazy immigration shit and politics.

A month ago I had a realization. I’m never going to fully fit in with the pagan community here. I come from different roots and I am tired of trying to find my tribe. I’m at a point in my life where I know what is important to me. I know how I like to worship.  I’ve been walking this religious path for over 22 years. I don’t need a group to validate me.

That realization was freeing. Along with that I realized I need to go back to my fierceness for my family. I need to be strong and powerful to teach my son how to exist in this fucked up world. I need to go back to being the crazy soul who dances in the grocery store. I need to show him how to live life with passion and joy. That means I need to get back to my roots to be me fully.

I am embracing my nature. I am one of those super positive people who believes in other people. I am a cheerleader. I like to support others. I know that in the world today people like me are  thought to be too fake, there is a mindset that we are only pretending to be supportive so that we can look good. This isn’t true. I really am a person who likes to lift others up. I enjoy saying “yes, you are awesome! you are beautiful!” The problem is, I get drained. People will use me up to feel good and then toss me aside.

So I have learned to put limits on my support. I need to take care of me as well.  Now I’m going to say “Hey, I need my own time and space.”  When I can, I’ll be back to support in ways that don’t drain me dry.

I also used to post about all sorts of magick, meditations, dreams and the awesome spiritual stuff I was going through. I had to stop because of some “life stuff”, but I think I am finally at a point where I can bring back some of that without it causing headaches for my family. I am pickier about what I share now, so I doubt it will be as deep as it used to be, but there might be more actual witchcraft posted here again. Crazy, I know!

I am probably going to give up on the small circles I was trying to create. I don’t have the energy or time to run a group or host space for others. I am going to go deep into my own practice. I will offer support through social media for people who need it by sharing rituals or ideas that others may find useful. I will be there to bounce ideas off of, I may continue to teach my 101 online when I have the desire to do so. When it fits my schedule I will try to get out to group stuff so I can connect, but I am not going to stress over it anymore.

My fierceness will come through in many different ways. The biggest way will be doing what I  want and taking care of myself. I know that the idea of self love and care can be a weird topic for many. I’m going to own it and be me. Cause, I fucking love who I am. That statement alone is a revolution in this world. Time to be me. Take it or leave it world. I don’t need your validation or permission.

The season of the witch is here. I’m going to own it.

 

 

 

 

Mabon Prep

September arrived with some cool winds and grey skies. This has kicked me into fall gear and I am looking at the calendar. Mabon is one of those holidays that sometimes gets missed or glossed over as we rush towards Samhain. This year I am going to try and make sure I can carve out some time to enjoy the holiday.

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My husband is having a surgery around then so I know our weekend will have to be low key and about comfort.  Mabon is very much a thanksgiving, comfy, family vibe to me, so that works.  In past years we have enjoyed a delicious crock pot sweet potato and apple soup, so that has become my Mabon dinner. I’ve found some new recipes to try and I am thinking a fancy grilled cheese will pair nicely with the soup. Grilled cheese is an ultimate feel good food.

For dessert I will do a spiced apple cookie. I don’t want to bring out the pumpkins yet, those are for Samhain, but an apple and cinnamon cookie would be delicious.

I’ve created a Mabon board on Pinterest with some recipes and some activities for the family. If you are looking for some inspiration, click to see what I have pinned.

Every fall we try to get out to pick apples, but we will probably wait until October for that. I will try to do some cute fall crafts with my little dude, and then once he is settled in for the night I will head down to my temple space to do my ritual.

 

Do you celebrate with your family? What sorts of things do you do to honour the changing season?

 

 

Fallow Times and the New Moon

Fallow times can be a strange time. Every so often Bast will step back from my life and there will be a stillness in my practice. There is always the initial “Oh crap!” and panic when I feel the disconnect, but then I settle in and know that there is a reason.

Usually she moves back so that I can work with someone else for a bit, to learn a lesson or because I need my butt kicked into gear. Every time there is something that I learn from it, and every time she comes back and our connection is solid again. Eventually, she might vanish forever, but so far we have always been reunited.

It took a few weeks for me to really realize that we were entering a fallow time. I had noticed that Freyja was poking me more often, that signs from her were appearing all over and that distracted me a bit from the fact that I didn’t feel the closeness I usually did with Bast.

When I realized it, there was a sense that this was different.  I know there are several retrogrades occurring and we were heading into the new moon so the energy was strange, but I felt like I needed to really acknowledge this fallow time.

So I followed my intuition. I grieved in my heart for our separation and took many of my statues down to the temple space. I created an altar in the West quarter, covering it with a black cloth and then laid my statues and shrine items down on it. Then I covered it all in a beautiful blue silk cloth and said that when it was time everything would go back to where it belonged.

I sat with this feeling and felt the silence. I busied myself with cleaning my altar and redecorating for the season. I pulled out my pendulum and my tarot cards and began to work with them.

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I haven’t sat down to explore this new relationship with Freyja yet. She is definitely around, I found myself reading fiction books about her, and stumbling across memes and articles and all sorts of other things relating to her. 2 years ago I had told her that I wasn’t going to buy anything specific for her shrine until I knew she was sticking it out. She had requested roses and I said no, maybe later. This year my husband decided to plant a rose bush. One with big pink roses. “Well,” I thought to myself, “that is interesting.”

I have found myself putting on my winged scarf that makes me think of her. My amber jewelry has made its way into rotationmore often. Little things to remind me and nudge me. So we’ll see where this goes. I am proceeding slowly.

Leading up to this New Moon I have been really in synch with my intuition. I got to spend some time playing with divination tools and I have found myself slipping into my readings with ease again. My dreams are coming back as well, especially now that the little man sleeps better.

I’ve gotten my butt in gear and started my exercising again and I am trying hard to eat better. I am determined to teach my little man how to eat healthy and exercise so that he can live a full and active life. The only real way to do this is to lead by example. This moon has me thinking of health and living well.

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What are you goals this moon? What do you plan to manifest?

I am beginning to look over my Wicca 101 course and I have plans to create some videos so I can teach online. My goal is to teach again this summer: both in person and online.  If you are interested in my 101 keep an eye on my Facebook page for details.