Fallow Times and the New Moon

Fallow times can be a strange time. Every so often Bast will step back from my life and there will be a stillness in my practice. There is always the initial “Oh crap!” and panic when I feel the disconnect, but then I settle in and know that there is a reason.

Usually she moves back so that I can work with someone else for a bit, to learn a lesson or because I need my butt kicked into gear. Every time there is something that I learn from it, and every time she comes back and our connection is solid again. Eventually, she might vanish forever, but so far we have always been reunited.

It took a few weeks for me to really realize that we were entering a fallow time. I had noticed that Freyja was poking me more often, that signs from her were appearing all over and that distracted me a bit from the fact that I didn’t feel the closeness I usually did with Bast.

When I realized it, there was a sense that this was different.  I know there are several retrogrades occurring and we were heading into the new moon so the energy was strange, but I felt like I needed to really acknowledge this fallow time.

So I followed my intuition. I grieved in my heart for our separation and took many of my statues down to the temple space. I created an altar in the West quarter, covering it with a black cloth and then laid my statues and shrine items down on it. Then I covered it all in a beautiful blue silk cloth and said that when it was time everything would go back to where it belonged.

I sat with this feeling and felt the silence. I busied myself with cleaning my altar and redecorating for the season. I pulled out my pendulum and my tarot cards and began to work with them.

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I haven’t sat down to explore this new relationship with Freyja yet. She is definitely around, I found myself reading fiction books about her, and stumbling across memes and articles and all sorts of other things relating to her. 2 years ago I had told her that I wasn’t going to buy anything specific for her shrine until I knew she was sticking it out. She had requested roses and I said no, maybe later. This year my husband decided to plant a rose bush. One with big pink roses. “Well,” I thought to myself, “that is interesting.”

I have found myself putting on my winged scarf that makes me think of her. My amber jewelry has made its way into rotationmore often. Little things to remind me and nudge me. So we’ll see where this goes. I am proceeding slowly.

Leading up to this New Moon I have been really in synch with my intuition. I got to spend some time playing with divination tools and I have found myself slipping into my readings with ease again. My dreams are coming back as well, especially now that the little man sleeps better.

I’ve gotten my butt in gear and started my exercising again and I am trying hard to eat better. I am determined to teach my little man how to eat healthy and exercise so that he can live a full and active life. The only real way to do this is to lead by example. This moon has me thinking of health and living well.

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What are you goals this moon? What do you plan to manifest?

I am beginning to look over my Wicca 101 course and I have plans to create some videos so I can teach online. My goal is to teach again this summer: both in person and online.  If you are interested in my 101 keep an eye on my Facebook page for details.

New Moon & Life

TGIF! Work has been go go go, for the past 2 weeks. I’m feeling pretty worn out. The week was short but felt like it took forever. Coming off a nasty cold into the busiest time of the year was harder than I thought it would be. Mercury going into retrograde right as we got super busy and launched a new program at work led to some headaches. Hopefully next week goes smoother!

I started off the week with a new hair cut and some hair dye. I told myself I was going to be me this year and so I brought some boldness in. I’m now rocking a pixie cut with vivid red hair. Everyone has thought it is super cool. I think it might be a bit too bold for some, but that’s ok. I had a student stop me in the hall to tell me how awesome they thought it was.

Last year my Lady nudged me to start dressing up and having fun with my look. I’ve had a few false starts, but I think my hair has reminded me to get out there and try new things. I want to be me, so I can’t keep letting worries about the conservative mindset of other people hold me back. If I want to wear bright colours and sparkly jewelry and have crazy hair… well then I should. I’m finding my stride in this place.

I was worn out on the New Moon but I pulled something together. I started off the night with the LBRP to center and cleanse. One of my loved ones had some stress going on in their life so I crafted a protective amulet for them and sent out some protection magick. Then I also spent some time sending energy to a few more of my loved ones.

I walked around my room using my shakers to cleanse the space. I like to use music and vibration to help get rid of bad energy. Then I sprinkled some salt around. We’ve had some restless nights and I thought a bit of grounding would help. I ended the night catching my spiritual journal up. It helped me to mellow out.

I’ve had some crazy dreams all week and made some notes. I can tell I am stressed out when my dreams get terrible. I think I need to get back to my practice of praying and meditating. Some of my coworkers want to start a meditation group and I think I should get in on that.

In a few months I’m taking a music class. I look forward to learning how to play my ukulele. I think music is important and I want to be able to jam with the hubby!

Strength (Aug Photo Challenge)

28. Strength. It isn’t always about muscles, endurance, or solid walls. Sometimes strength is about being soft. Knowing when to be vulnerable. Knowing which battles to fight and which to walk away from. Sometimes strength is about sticking with something, digging in your heels and holding on, and sometimes it is about knowing when to let go and walk away.

strengthFind the prompts here.

Faith (Aug Photo Challenge)

20. Faith. So many objects could symbolize my faith. The flickering candle, the way a piece of quartz glows, any number of necklaces that has spiritual significance to me, the way the leaves glow when the sun hits them, the birds in the sky, the feeling of the wind on my skin… any photo I have posted could symbolize my faith. So I put together various things, but nothing really captures the true essence of my faith.

FaithFind the prompts here.

Prayer (Aug Photo Challenge)

17. Prayer. I’m happy with my prayer beads and wear them to work often. The weight of them remind me to check in. I pray through out the day. In the morning on my way to work, on my lunch break, in stressful moments and at night. Keeping in touch with my Gods and Goddesses is important to me.

prayerFind the prompts here.