Fallow Times and the New Moon

Fallow times can be a strange time. Every so often Bast will step back from my life and there will be a stillness in my practice. There is always the initial “Oh crap!” and panic when I feel the disconnect, but then I settle in and know that there is a reason.

Usually she moves back so that I can work with someone else for a bit, to learn a lesson or because I need my butt kicked into gear. Every time there is something that I learn from it, and every time she comes back and our connection is solid again. Eventually, she might vanish forever, but so far we have always been reunited.

It took a few weeks for me to really realize that we were entering a fallow time. I had noticed that Freyja was poking me more often, that signs from her were appearing all over and that distracted me a bit from the fact that I didn’t feel the closeness I usually did with Bast.

When I realized it, there was a sense that this was different.  I know there are several retrogrades occurring and we were heading into the new moon so the energy was strange, but I felt like I needed to really acknowledge this fallow time.

So I followed my intuition. I grieved in my heart for our separation and took many of my statues down to the temple space. I created an altar in the West quarter, covering it with a black cloth and then laid my statues and shrine items down on it. Then I covered it all in a beautiful blue silk cloth and said that when it was time everything would go back to where it belonged.

I sat with this feeling and felt the silence. I busied myself with cleaning my altar and redecorating for the season. I pulled out my pendulum and my tarot cards and began to work with them.

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I haven’t sat down to explore this new relationship with Freyja yet. She is definitely around, I found myself reading fiction books about her, and stumbling across memes and articles and all sorts of other things relating to her. 2 years ago I had told her that I wasn’t going to buy anything specific for her shrine until I knew she was sticking it out. She had requested roses and I said no, maybe later. This year my husband decided to plant a rose bush. One with big pink roses. “Well,” I thought to myself, “that is interesting.”

I have found myself putting on my winged scarf that makes me think of her. My amber jewelry has made its way into rotationmore often. Little things to remind me and nudge me. So we’ll see where this goes. I am proceeding slowly.

Leading up to this New Moon I have been really in synch with my intuition. I got to spend some time playing with divination tools and I have found myself slipping into my readings with ease again. My dreams are coming back as well, especially now that the little man sleeps better.

I’ve gotten my butt in gear and started my exercising again and I am trying hard to eat better. I am determined to teach my little man how to eat healthy and exercise so that he can live a full and active life. The only real way to do this is to lead by example. This moon has me thinking of health and living well.

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What are you goals this moon? What do you plan to manifest?

I am beginning to look over my Wicca 101 course and I have plans to create some videos so I can teach online. My goal is to teach again this summer: both in person and online.  If you are interested in my 101 keep an eye on my Facebook page for details.

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What’s in the cards?

  Fortunes forecast! Lucky charms! -Little John, Robin Hood 1973

Once upon a time I used to do a constant stream of tarot work. When we were “baby witches” in our teen years tarot work was the coolest. Every circle, every sabbat, every question… a deck was pulled out and we read as a group or paired off and did individual readings. My first tarot deck is well loved. I also think it is out of print, because both of us are old.

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Cards from the Witches Tarot

As time went on we moved on from tarot and did all sorts of other things. I still loved tarot and would pull out my cards to play with or on occasion would pop down to see if my friend from Mud & Magic would do a reading for me. She would pull out her basket of cards (because she had a collection) and I could pick which deck I wanted her to use. I remember having a mad love for a cat deck she had, even if it was a bit odd. Sometimes we’d pull out the Inner child cards for a ritual, their oversized shape made shuffling so difficult, especially for those of us with tiny hands. The were fun though, brightly coloured, with fairy tale pictures.

Years went by and my deck started to gather dust. I found a new deck and fell madly in love with it and started to play with it all the time. I was rusty though, lack of use had made me feel awkward when reading. This was really driven home one night when I pulled out my cards and read for Sarah. We were relaxed after a delicious meal, hanging out while the guys played with a drum and I did my best, but man did I feel like I was struggling. That is the moment I realized I had to use my gift more often. Use it or lose it as they say!

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Cards from the Ancient Egyptian Tarot

I pulled myself together and started reading for myself again and occasionally for friends. Then I decided to really focus on tarot and began to pull a card daily. It helped, I felt my readings were smoother again. Every Samhain I bring a deck of some sort to work to read for my coworkers and the past few years have been really great.

This year I have begun journaling about my cards and have started to try new spreads. I still use my first tarot deck, but I go through cycles where I am all about it and then I put it away and pull out my other deck. A few years ago my grandma gifted me one of her old tarot decks that I grew up playing with. I still haven’t tried to read with it yet, but one of these days I will. The cards are pristine.  I think we played with them a few times and grandma read the book that came with it. She may have done some readings, but otherwise I mostly just looked at the pictures on the cards. We spent far more time using playing cards to read with. Maybe one of these days I’ll pick up a book on cartomancy and try that again.

I have been feeling the urge to find a new deck. There are several that are super popular right now and I see them everywhere. Sometimes I think that I should get a regular old Rider-Waite deck, but then I see some of the other ones out there and I want something fancy and pretty. What is your go to deck these days and why?

Shop update and Tarot show

First up! The shop has been updated. I managed to poke the technology and now my quote art is up. Please check it out! Each listing gives you 2 versions of the same image, one in cooler tones and one in warmer tones.

In other news, if you are in the Madison area, the Public Library will be hosting an event you may want to check out. The Bubbler will have a show of Tarot Art work. Its opening is on the same night as another event, and it looks like they will have tarot inspired things to do. If you are looking for something to do on a Friday night in April, you should head on out and check it out. I can’t wait to see what everyone created for their Tarot Cards. Each artist had a card picked for them and they had enough artists participate that 2 tarot decks were used. That is 144 cards for those who aren’t sure…

 

 

Growing and working

Work on building my tradition is going well. We’re getting together in a few weeks to go over the things I have written and to do some brainstorming. I’m excited about the changes we are making and the direction we are starting to head in. It is good to feel creative.

I’m dusting off things I haven’t worked on in some time, finding new books and new techniques to try and I am interested to see what I build. I’ve always enjoyed the structure of traditional Wicca and so I am mirroring things I love about that, but also pausing and thinking of all the times in ritual I went “Why don’t we do this” and changing what needs to be changed. I’m thankful I have the background I do from my previous tradition and also thankful I have the flexibility to grow

I had plans to do a bunch of things last night for the dark moon, but…. life. So instead I spent some time meditating and then pulled a few tarot cards. The World, The Moon and the Ace of Disks/Pentacles. I think it is a pretty positive grouping. I also took some time to do the LBRP and cleanse the space.

Once I was in bed I jumped to the Astral and will have to sort out the images I saw there.

I’ve been re-working the 101 course and editing my teaching notes on top of the tradition work. I’ve also been planning out esbats and I hope to have us all scheduled up soon. The month has been a busy one, but I am enjoying the energy.

My 101 class will start on June 8th and will run for 6 weeks. I’m excited to have a few students and I am feeling more in control this time around. My last 101 class was a bit wibbly with scheduling conflicts and bad weather. I’ve decided going forward I will only run my 101 class in the late spring/early summer to help with some of the issues I’ve had in the past. I’ve learned as well that I can’t plan to do things around the start of term. There is too much happening at work to have extra energy.

I hope you all had a chance to enjoy the night and started what you needed to start. .

Strength (Aug Photo Challenge)

28. Strength. It isn’t always about muscles, endurance, or solid walls. Sometimes strength is about being soft. Knowing when to be vulnerable. Knowing which battles to fight and which to walk away from. Sometimes strength is about sticking with something, digging in your heels and holding on, and sometimes it is about knowing when to let go and walk away.

strengthFind the prompts here.