Full moon dreams

As a new mom there isn’t a lot of sleep in my world. I suppose I am luckier than others, my son will sleep for large chunks, but it took us a year to get there. As someone who is an active dreamer, it has been very strange to have no dreams for a year.

The past few months they have been coming back. First, they came back with the stress dreams and nightmares that I think all new moms have. Now I am starting to have my normal strange dreams, the magic dreams and the silly dreams. Full moon through the leaves

Last night was magic. In my dream….. 

I walked out of a forest path to find myself on a sandy beach in a cove. The moon was shining high in the sky and it was all quiet. In the shallows I could see symbols stamped into the sand. I stood there and stretched my arms high above my head and soaked in the moonlight.

A noise brought my eyes to the shore across the cove where a baby bear came wandering out. Shortly after that, mama bear came out to stand on the beach. I stood there watching them and then reached for my phone to snap a photograph. As I zoomed in on the baby bear, a young wolf cub came out of the forest and began to play with the bear cub. At that point my dream brain thought “Hmm, maybe I should leave so that the mama animals don’t get angry with me.” That woke me enough that the dream shifted and I lost the sense of magic and instead had the sense of anxiety of getting away from the wild animals.

Both bear and wolf have meaning to me so I will meditate on the messages from them. I also remember the symbols I saw and will add that into the mix to see what the Goddess was sending me. I am dealing with a lot of change in my life, I know my stress and anxiety have been starting to climb, so it was really refreshing to have such a calm and meaningful dream.

I had tried to do a little spiritual work before bed, but I was so worn thin. The Goddess whispered in my ear “Go rest now” and I am glad I listened. The dream stayed with me and I can still feel the sense of relaxation. Have you ever had a dream that stuck with you like that? That was so calm and so perfectly normal, yet magickal?

I hope everyone had a magickal full moon and that you got what you needed from it.

 

 

 

 

Magick in art

There is a meditation I do that walks me through being part of the universe. It reminds me that I am part of this larger picture, that I am sacred and wonderful. It also reminds me that I am a small slice of it and that I am an empty canvas to fill and create as I like.

I like to remind myself that I am made up of so many things. That there is nothing set in stone. I can be who I want, how I want, when I want. This has inspired me to create some printable art that will soon be available in my etsy store. I opened myself up and worked with intention. I’ve also been working on my spirit dolls again. I have a few made and hope to get some photographs of them soon so they can be put up for sale. There is magick in my crafts and art.  I hope that people enjoy it.

The shop should be updated soon. Keep your eyes and ears open!

Last night I pulled the Wheel of Fortune and I am reminded that some days might be cold, dark and barren, but the wheel turns and soon we will have sunshine, light and flowers everywhere. I’m ready for spring and something new and fresh.  Are you?

 

 

 

Samhain

On the 31st I brought my meditation oracle to work. Every year I bring something and let my coworkers pick a card. This year everyone was very impressed because they all got some sort of message that meant something to them. My message was a bit of a cosmic 2×4, but I have come to expect that of my messages.

We didn’t get very many trick or treaters, but the few we had were cute. The little dude was very interested in what was going on. On the weekend before Halloween we had the wee one as well and we all went over to a friends house for Halloween fun. The kids dressed up, played Halloween games like “Mummy Wrap” and carved pumpkins. They all had a good time.

Back home on the 31st, after the little dude was asleep, I went out and walked our yard and worked on the wards. It was a wonderfully witchy night, the wind was blowing and the stars were out. It had a crispness in the air that made it feel like it would be cold soon. I walked around my yard, working my magick and letting my cloak fly about in the wind. It was lovely.

My coven wasn’t able to get together until Nov 5th, so that is when we celebrated. We didn’t do any of the traditional Samhain things this year, we had other magick to work. When we were done it felt good. I almost cried, the reaction that let me know the magick was working. There was a feeling of solidness, that what we had done was the right path. I look forward to the steady growth as we move forward.

I also wasn’t ready to deal with the grief I had. Earlier in October a friend took their own life. I’m still working through that and will say goodbye when it feels right.

Growing and working

Work on building my tradition is going well. We’re getting together in a few weeks to go over the things I have written and to do some brainstorming. I’m excited about the changes we are making and the direction we are starting to head in. It is good to feel creative.

I’m dusting off things I haven’t worked on in some time, finding new books and new techniques to try and I am interested to see what I build. I’ve always enjoyed the structure of traditional Wicca and so I am mirroring things I love about that, but also pausing and thinking of all the times in ritual I went “Why don’t we do this” and changing what needs to be changed. I’m thankful I have the background I do from my previous tradition and also thankful I have the flexibility to grow

I had plans to do a bunch of things last night for the dark moon, but…. life. So instead I spent some time meditating and then pulled a few tarot cards. The World, The Moon and the Ace of Disks/Pentacles. I think it is a pretty positive grouping. I also took some time to do the LBRP and cleanse the space.

Once I was in bed I jumped to the Astral and will have to sort out the images I saw there.

I’ve been re-working the 101 course and editing my teaching notes on top of the tradition work. I’ve also been planning out esbats and I hope to have us all scheduled up soon. The month has been a busy one, but I am enjoying the energy.

My 101 class will start on June 8th and will run for 6 weeks. I’m excited to have a few students and I am feeling more in control this time around. My last 101 class was a bit wibbly with scheduling conflicts and bad weather. I’ve decided going forward I will only run my 101 class in the late spring/early summer to help with some of the issues I’ve had in the past. I’ve learned as well that I can’t plan to do things around the start of term. There is too much happening at work to have extra energy.

I hope you all had a chance to enjoy the night and started what you needed to start. .

Happy Beltaine/Beltane/Mayday/Samhain

Whatever you celebrate today I hope it is a lovely day. We have sunshine and warm weather. I didn’t do much last night. I was sleepy and after a visit to the dr there wasn’t much time left in the evening. So I put out some oats and almond milk for the fey folk, poured fresh water for Bast and filled a glass with vodka for Freyja.

I lit my candles for a few mins and pulled a card. Most of my readings lately have been about me completing projects, or being near to completing a project and a reminder that I can handle any changes, that I can make my reality and that I have the power to do as I wish. These are good reminders.

I’ve been busy lately. The hubby and I both took a music class through March and April, I’ve been getting out to discussions and coffee meet-ups and we’ve been at the gym or out taking walks. I’m happy the nice weather is here. My music reading skills are rusty, but coming back after my ukulele class. I hope to keep practicing this summer to get stronger.

I have all sorts of plans for the summer and fall. I’ve been reading a book on organization and it is getting me inspired. I have multiple craft projects on the go. I want to get out and enjoy the weather. And of course take time to sit in my garden and enjoy it.

I haven’t decided yet if I will run a Wicca 101 this summer or not. I will probably leave that until June to decide. I want to look over and revamp the materials I have for the class and there are a few other things I need to dig out and look at as well.

We did a bit of magick at Ostara with the local community. I hope that the ideas we planted will take root and everyone will start to come together. It is always fun to meet a new person and see how their faith differs from mine and how it is the same. It is a wonderful chance for us to learn from each other. I’m pretty happy with the community events that have been happening and I hope to do what I can to help keep that energy up.

Today though I will focus on myself and my love. I pulled some energy down this morning and surrounded myself with a golden bubble of energy. I said good morning to Ra in the sky. I stopped to enjoy the flowers in the garden. After work I will take time for the hubby and I to relax and have some quality time. And tonight I will light my candles, meditate and work a little magick.

I hope you all find some time for self-love today! I have a May challenge for us all, but I am going to wait till later to post it. Be gentle on yourself and take a moment to smile.

Blessed Beltaine!

New Moon & Life

TGIF! Work has been go go go, for the past 2 weeks. I’m feeling pretty worn out. The week was short but felt like it took forever. Coming off a nasty cold into the busiest time of the year was harder than I thought it would be. Mercury going into retrograde right as we got super busy and launched a new program at work led to some headaches. Hopefully next week goes smoother!

I started off the week with a new hair cut and some hair dye. I told myself I was going to be me this year and so I brought some boldness in. I’m now rocking a pixie cut with vivid red hair. Everyone has thought it is super cool. I think it might be a bit too bold for some, but that’s ok. I had a student stop me in the hall to tell me how awesome they thought it was.

Last year my Lady nudged me to start dressing up and having fun with my look. I’ve had a few false starts, but I think my hair has reminded me to get out there and try new things. I want to be me, so I can’t keep letting worries about the conservative mindset of other people hold me back. If I want to wear bright colours and sparkly jewelry and have crazy hair… well then I should. I’m finding my stride in this place.

I was worn out on the New Moon but I pulled something together. I started off the night with the LBRP to center and cleanse. One of my loved ones had some stress going on in their life so I crafted a protective amulet for them and sent out some protection magick. Then I also spent some time sending energy to a few more of my loved ones.

I walked around my room using my shakers to cleanse the space. I like to use music and vibration to help get rid of bad energy. Then I sprinkled some salt around. We’ve had some restless nights and I thought a bit of grounding would help. I ended the night catching my spiritual journal up. It helped me to mellow out.

I’ve had some crazy dreams all week and made some notes. I can tell I am stressed out when my dreams get terrible. I think I need to get back to my practice of praying and meditating. Some of my coworkers want to start a meditation group and I think I should get in on that.

In a few months I’m taking a music class. I look forward to learning how to play my ukulele. I think music is important and I want to be able to jam with the hubby!

Here we come 2015!

Happy New Years!

This year has been a pretty good one. There has been much laughter, much love and a bunch of blessings. I don’t remember what my word was for last year anymore. Hmm. Oh well! I still haven’t decided on a word for this year, but it will come to me. I have a few I am kicking around in my head, we’ll see what pops out.

I am feeling motivated these past few days. Having time off to get things done is helpful. I feel like I can do all the things. Some of my goals are becoming more clear and I think they might even be attainable. They are sitting there, just outside my grasp, but they are visible now. Good things!

I’m going to be joining a Pagan book club this year, I’m finishing up the Kemetic classes, I’m about to start up my 101 class I teach again, my group is becoming more solid… Spiritual things make me happy.

Last night my Kemetic class was talking about heka and how anything we say can have power. I have learned that lesson more then once in my life. So I knew at Samhain when I dressed as a priestess I had better be prepared for the responsibility that comes with it. I know that there are frustrations when you are in a leadership position, but there are also awesome moments of fantasticness. I look forward to seeing what my group can do this year. I look forward to seeing how we grow and where we go.

I’ve also started stepping out and trying to get to more events in the community. I will continue to do that in the new year and hopefully will build some bridges with other groups in the area.

The hubby continues to be super supportive and wonderful. I was really happy to see how much fun he had at the Solstice Pageant. He wants to go again next year and told me we should invite his mom. A good time will be had!

We both got Fitbits for Christmas from his mom, which is fabulous. I am motivated by achievements, gold stars, badges and healthy competition. So this has me getting up and making sure I am active. I was happy to see that in my normal day-to-day stuff I am pretty good about moving around, so now I just have to kick it up a notch. We will be fit this year. No more excuses! I have goals I want and this is part of it.

I have a bunch of organizing to do this weekend, but I feel like I got a good chunk of my winter break list done. I plan to start taking my embroidery to work again so I can work on it in the mornings. I’m always there an hour early, I might as well use the time wisely. I do hope to get enough stuff done this year that I can get back to putting things up in my etsy store. I’ve put it in writing so now I have to do it!

This Full Moon I plan to do a little magick. I think I will work on some focus. I tend to get scattered and want to do all the things at once. I need to finish one thing before moving onto the next. Hopefully this will help!

I also hope to get back to doing regular posts. I feel like last year I wasn’t as into it as I wanted to be.

I hope you all had a fun-filled holiday season. What things are you looking forward this year? What are you letting go of and what are you hoping to bring into your life? Let me know, cause I’d love to hear about it!