Vacation life

We had a mini vacation last week. It was our week with the tween and it worked out perfectly that my in-laws were hosting an event while we had her. This did mean a lot of car time, but we got through it. My step-daughter doesn’t get a lot of time with my husband’s side of the family which is really sad, so we try hard to find times to go see them. Anytime we have to work out these trips I think about how lucky I was that my mom didn’t try to keep us from seeing the other side of the family and did what she could to make sure they got time with us. We were pretty blessed that our whole family was willing to travel and make time when they could.

The trip up there went smoothly. The little man slept for part of it and was in an ok mood for the rest. The ride home did not go as smoothly;  he wasn’t feeling well and his teeth were bugging him. I spent a lot of time in the back trying to keep him occupied. It was a long 3 hours.


Little dude howling at the puppy

I spent most of the party watching the little dude interact with everyone. It’s funny how confident kids are. I wonder if he will keep that confidence as he gets older. Our visit went well, the kids all seemed to have fun together. The tween gets a little over controlling of her brother and cousins, but I understand that. I was the same way at that age. Controlling the little people around you is a safe outlet for feeling like you have some control in your life. We just gently remind her everything is ok when she gets a bit overbearing and life carries on.

We had a couple of good discussions with her about things going on in her life and she asked me to teach her how to do hand sewing and embroidery. I found a few patterns I think she could use as learning projects and then we spent some time sewing. I told her if she enjoys it and sticks with it I would get another pattern for her. She is pretty excited about that so we’ll see how it goes. She did ask to work on it a few times, which is a good sign.  Hand sewing is a good skill to have. You can fix a hem, sew a button back on, stitch up a hole… We also had a talk about how I enjoy projects like that as it is good for occupying the hands when anxious.

I managed to get a few more of my projects completed in the car. Two little foxes are now listed in the shop. I also managed to find time to sew a doll for my little dude and started on some Christmas gifts.


New foxes in the shop


I think it is super important for the tween and my husband to have time together so I always work a day or two when we have her for the week. The baby goes to daycare and the two of them go off for an adventure or just hang out and do normal life stuff. I asked them to pick a recipe or two for the week and so that lessened some of the stress I have over meal planning. I know kids are picky eaters, but I hoped that if she was picking the meal it would work out better. And thankfully it did. Whew.

The week was busy, but there was a lot of giggling. She got to have lots of solid quality time with her little brother. The weekend isn’t enough time sometimes, so it was nice to see the two of them running around and laughing together.  She looked so sad when she had to hug him goodbye, but I reminded her that she would be back in a week. She took a few photos of him too, and that will hopefully help ease the sadness.

After running around all week we relaxed on the weekend. I’m working on more projects for the shop and I’m pondering content I can also sell. I wish money wasn’t so tight all the time, I just keep hoping once my CDN bills are paid off things will feel easier. We’re getting there, but there is always a new expense that pops up. I’m trying hard to manifest a more positive outlook about money and doing all I can to bring in extra income. It is tricky, society has taught us that money is evil, and yet it is so necessary for so many things. I’m working through that.  The free courses I have taken online recently have helped with that mindest.

I am selling tarot readings again, if you are interested send me a message through the Facebook page. I plan to get something put up in the store about it soon too.

Eqyptian tarot

I hope you are all having a fabulous summer! Do you have any exciting vacation plans? Or do you do staycations? Whatever it is you do, I hope you enjoy it!








Prepping for Mabon

The wheel is turning and some of these mornings have really felt like Fall! My coven mate and I met up to discuss admin/organizational things a few weeks ago. At that time I said “Well eventually I should get back out into the community to get to know people and have them get to know us” So of course the universe listened because now I am running the Mabon ritual for a community Mabon.

I kept it simple. Rather then doing a full Wiccan circle I am going to create sacred space with the help of everyone there. Getting people involved is fun and I hope it makes people feel more connected.

I have cleaned out space in the basement so that we can ritual without disrupting the hubby and the little dude. Eventually I will get a throw rug and privacy screens to make the space pretty, but for now we’ll pull a table out and ritual on the cement floor.

I’m excited to be back in the swing of things spiritually. I tried to keep doing some things while pregnant, but there was so much more going on in our life so it was difficult. And I think it was important to take that time to look inward and focus on the changes I was going through.

My plan is to not take any students on until next year, but I am aware that sometimes things happen. So I haven’t set anything in stone. I have some re-writing to do of things and organizing to do for the group and then there is that whole figuring out my time management for house stuff too.

The little dude is growing so fast. He’s already 4 months. Watching him learn things is so fascinating. I try not to post too many photos of him on Instagram, but there is the occasional one. He’s such a good little dude, we really are blessed. His big sister adores him and is really excited when she gets to have a cuddle with him. On one of our trips she fell asleep in the back seat holding his hand. My heart melted. So much love.

I hope you all are doing well and are getting ready for the changing of the seasons!


Still here

Every day for the last 2 weeks people have been calling, emailing or popping their heads into my office. “Still here?” they ask. Yes, yes I am still here and yes I am still full of baby.

Our official due date was May 14th so I am sure we will soon be meeting this little squirmy person. It has been interesting to me to see who has been so excited about this baby and who hasn’t been. Some of the faculty here have been crazy excited, and many of them were men. I wasn’t really expecting that, but it is cool.

My coworkers have been super supportive and wonderful. Even on the days I lean back in my chair and stare at the ceiling for chunks of time. I’ve taken many walks through the halls, visited the ice machine in our kitchens over and over, and had students and staff stop me to talk about the baby.

I have been very lucky. No one has invaded my space, no one has tried to touch me without my approval and while yes, there has been a lot of advice and many stories, it wasn’t as bad as I worried it would be.

I am missing having a spiritual/friend community, but I understood some time ago that I will not have the large and wonderful friend group and community here I had back home. At this point I think I’d be happy to have a few people in my life that are on the same wavelength that I am spiritual wise. I am sure people will be like “Well its not like you have gone out of your way to do anything” but when moving and making a baby there is only so much energy left over. I tried to make it out to a few events, and I even created a few of my own, and well they didn’t work out the way I had hoped. Such is life when you are the newcomer.

I’m not sure how my coven will work out with the baby. It will be a learning process, and we’ll see if I can even get things rolling again. I’ve been a bit focused inwards the last 9 months, but I feel that is appropriate for the journey I was taking.

I have pondered having a Wiccaning for the baby, but then I thought about it. Of the 4 or 5 pagans in town that I would actually want to invite, only 1 or 2 would most likely show up. People seem to have crazy schedules and I have had people cancel on me at the last minute many times since I moved here. I suppose I could have one with just myself and maybe family, but I don’t know.  I’ll play that one by ear.

For now I will continue to monitor squirmy mcsquirmster here and try to keep my energy up. I’ve continued to walk and move around a ton, despite how tired it can make me. I haven’t been stretching as much as I probably should, but I hit a point where it started to hurt with all the ligaments moving around or whatever they do. Bodies are weird.

The wee one is not so wee anymore so I’ll have to start calling her the tween. She has been very fascinated by my belly and the baby. It has been adorable watching her tell her dad to stop sassing me or to make me what I want etc because “SHES PREGNANT DAD” It makes us all giggle.




Spiritual and mundane

I hope everyone had a lovely weekend. We relaxed for most of it, did a little grocery shopping and I spent some time sewing. I have several projects I want to get finished up soon. We also got out to see my coven and catch up a bit. That was nice, it has been several months since I saw people socially.

I’ve been pondering how to set up my sacred space in the new house. I think it will have to wait until I get the rest of the basement pulled together, but we have enough space down there to circle. And then the hubby isn’t stuck in the bedroom on ritual nights. I told the coven to get some scared slippers since the floor will be cold. Eventually I will get a rug or something, but for now, slippers!

I spent some time this weekend doing a bit of energy work. I’m trying out some different things to connect to the baby and hopefully it will allow me to calm the little one even if its not in my arms. We’ll see how that works out. I don’t have super high hopes, but hey, at least its fun to do.

I’ve been doing my yoga almost every day and I’m pretty proud of myself for that. The hubby even joins me some nights. Baby tends to start squirming after and I am not sure if its because I’ve been moving around in different ways and squishing it, or if its because I am all calm and collected and it is picking up on that.

It is going to be a busy couple of months as I go forward. All sorts of classes at the hospital, baby showers and sooner or later I need to start prepping the nursery. I keep reminding myself these last 3 months are going to fly by, so I better get on it.


Bump news

We’re in the countdown of 3ish months till the baby arrives. People have been asking me if I am “freaking out” yet. I’m not sure what exactly I am supposed to freak out about, there are too many things I could stress over.

The only thing that has really been worrying me is support networks. As in, I don’t have one. The closest family is 3 hours away. While I know people around town, I haven’t formed any hardcore best friends networks. The few people I was just starting to get to know I haven’t seen in months and months because I was so tired out and then busy with the move. While I have my coven-mates, they are all super busy people.

The hubby has a friend who I know will be there for us if we need it, but it can be a little awkward as I am still getting to know them. Its not like I am going to form a super best bud group in less then 3 months. I realize that. And then I get worried.

Back home I knew if I needed anything there were at least 5 different people that would be there in a heartbeat. And then at least 10 people who would be there on the phone making plans to be there when they could. Here, I feel a little lost.

Sadly, the places I thought I would find like minded people hasn’t worked out the way I thought it would. And as a 1 car household and living in a place with crappy bus service it makes it even more difficult to get out to do things and meet people. I have to make sure I am working around the hubbies schedule on top of finding an event or something that I think will be a great time to meet friends. It has been more frustrating then I usually like to talk about. I gave up a bit for a while. And now here we are.

I don’t know what I’ll do about it at this point. I guess I just keep on keeping on and hoping that I can get out to meet people and form those tighter connections. The hubby reminded me that his mom will be down after the baby is born and my mom is coming and so I’ll have a bit of support then.

In more positive news, I have managed to maintain the weight they want me too, I passed the glucose test and I am doing yoga daily. No weird cravings. I have craved a lot of PB flavoured things, salty snacks and cheeseburgers. The cheeseburgers I will blame on the fact that I need to have more iron. I also really want my drinks to be cold so I am thankful we have an ice maker on the fridge.

The nursery is empty and I know I really should get on putting it all together, but I think that will really happen after the baby shower. My mother-in-law has several pieces of furniture for us so once she comes to visit with them all I am sure we’ll get to work on things.

We still haven’t settled on names. Our in-laws are due in less then a month so once they have their child (like us they are waiting to be surprised) we’ll knuckle down on our name list. We don’t want to fall in love with a name, only to have it be what our niece or nephew is. We do have a list we are working on, but it is top secret 🙂





I’ve always worked in places where people may tell you that they think you are great, but it is never formally recognized. Today that changed. Our team was awarded “Outstanding Team” and apparently there were a landslide of nomination letters. It feels good to know that the positive energy and hard work we all put out there is noticed. We’re pretty lucky. We have a great team, great bosses and a fun environment to work in. Not everyone is as blessed.

The cold weather has found us and I suspect this long weekend will be a quiet one at home. There have been a lot of expenses out of the blue lately, so we are living life pretty tight. Its ok though, we’re pretty happy to hole up at home and relax. I think I’ll be digging through my scraps to make a lunch bag and we’ll unpack some of the basement. I have a quilt to work on as well and maybe I’ll think about making things for the baby.

I also want to work on warding the house and getting ready for having the coven over. I moved all my altar stuff myself, so if I unpack it and anything is broken… well that is my fault. I think it will be ok though. So far everything I have opened has survived the move so fingers crossed this continues. I have sorta figured out the directions in our new home and at least when I circle next I’ll have some idea of where everything is.

I think we’re getting settled. It is beginning to feel like home. The wee one was pretty excited about her new room and is playing with ideas of how she wants to decorate.  We told her it is her space so she can re-arrange however she likes. She asked for my opinion on a few things and I encouraged her to spend some time thinking about it and to try out a few things so she could see what she liked best.

Happy 2016! I hope  your year is off to a good start!




2016 – Here we go

It has been a very busy few months so here are a few updates to start off the year.

The pregnancy is going well. We’ve been to a few ultrasounds and seen the little thing bouncing around. I am feeling it move now and there is definitely a baby belly happening. I have been a bit more hormonal, but I am embracing it and just being as zen as possible about all the changes. My co-worker was like “You are the most calm pregnant person I have ever met, I don’t think you know you’re pregnant” haha.

We moved over the Christmas break. That was a whirlwind of stress all on its own and lots of hard work and I really didn’t feel in the holiday spirit. We’re settled now though, and that feels nice. The house is coming together bit by bit.

Christmas with the family was nice, but cut short because of a massive storm front that moved into our State. Sadly, we lost a day with the wee one because of it and that bummed the hubby out quite a bit, but we did our best to keep positive. She was super cute and kept talking to the baby and touching my belly over the holidays.

I am hopeful to get back to having my coven over and getting out and seeing people before the baby is born, but we’ll take that week by week. With the bigger place I will have space to circle again, so I hope to get back to hosting some open events. We’ll see how that goes.

I hope everyone had a great holiday season! 2016 is going to be a year full of things!