Managing Magic with Small Children

In which friends Sarah and Cin talk about what it’s like to be a witch mom, give tips on how to juggle magic alongside tiny mischief makers, and talk about how to keep in touch with your magical practice when all you want is sleep and quiet.

Cin of Stone Spiral Creations is an experienced practitioner of the Craft with over 22 years of study in both group and solitary rituals. Growing up she played with astrology, tarot cards, and crystals in her Grandma’s kitchen. In her teen years she began to practice Wicca.  She has been involved in a long-standing coven and a Sabbat group, both based on Wiccan Traditions, and has been both a leader and participant in public rituals, classes, and events. Since moving from Canada to Wisconsin, USA, Cin has been working on building a coven and getting to know the local community.

By day Cin lives the cube life of an office worker. Evenings and weekends she can be found cuddling or chasing after her baby son. Cin loves to take photographs and will often be distracted by some tiny detail that she needs to capture. Cin is also a geek who loves to collect My Little Ponies, dolls, or anything sparkly or cute that catches her eye. She loves to do crafts; she sews, does embroidery, scrapbooks and adds large amounts of glitter to things (some of these things end up in her Etsy shop). Cin relaxes with a good book and a large bowl of popcorn.

Becoming a mom has been an amazing journey. I never thought I would be here, but I have learned that the universe throws you curveballs on occasion. I’ve always stated that if I had kids I would let them be free to explore religion and find the path that works best for them. Now, here I am, a new mom, trying to figure out how to have time for my spiritual needs in a way that works for my family and in the small amount of time I do get to have. I want to figure out how to let my son see this side of me, but I want to do it in a way that lets him know my path is mine, his dad has a different path, and he can find whichever way works for him.

I have many worries and fears. People often say that a child raised without spiritual purposeTarot card is lost. I never felt that way, but that is me. I want to offer some sort of guide post to help him find his way, but I also have to be careful. His sister is being raised Christian and I have promised to never mention my faith to her. It means I have to figure out how to juggle all these things and keep it under wraps every second weekend in my own home. I also don’t want him to get to school age and feel left out when all his friends talk about Church or to look weird if he talks about the things we do at home. A delicate balancing act is about to begin.

While I was pregnant I just didn’t have the energy to do much so my serious spiritual practices stopped. The first few months after he was born was a time of adjusting and learning to take care of his needs. I have slowly started to bring back my deeper work, but it can be hard when I am used to giving everyone else what they need before seeing to the things I need myself.

Here are some things that have helped to motivate me, inspire me or some general tips and tricks.

Social Media:

Be inspired by Instagram, blogs, FB, twitter but never compare your practices! I also find if I want to snap a photo of something on my altar I then feel I should actually do something. I’ve made it a rule, no empty photos. If I post my tarot cards, I do a reading, if I post a pretty altar shot I take time to pray.

Schedule time:

I try to look at the month and plan out what nights I will have more time. Schedule chore nights so that you can have time for yourself. After the kids are asleep is a great time to meditate or do some divination or journaling.

Tracker:

I am very motivated by accomplishments. I use a bullet journal and within it I have a daily tracker. Each day has several items on it that I want to be better about doing, things drinking enough water, eating more vegetables, and being Spiritual. As I get to the end of the day I start to figure out what I can do to check that box off.  Figure out what motivates you and use it.

Be flexible and simple:

Understand that you might have to pause that invocation to feed a hungry baby. Let anyone you work with know what potential interruptions might happen so everyone is on the same page.

If you feel like you don’t have time for a full ritual – pull a tarot card daily to meditate on. Make a note of it in your day planner or snap a pic with your phone so you can reference if you need to at various times of the day. Take a few mins on your lunch break or in the bathroom or wherever you have a few moments to yourself.

Before bed light a candle and pray. Connect to the divine however you feel most comfortable.

Chant while you push the stroller to raise some energy. Or while you rock the baby, or do the dishes, or the laundry etc. Use the time your hands might be busy as a time to raise energy with your voice. Focus it and then send it to aid you in your workings.

Set an alarm on your phone and when it goes off, pause and practice gratitude or work on a visualization etc.

Traditions:

Build family traditions that work around whichever holidays you celebrate. Keep them simple enough for your family and friends to take part in, but witchy enough that you can tap into the symbolism and feel like you celebrated.

In our family we plan to make “Sun cookies” on the solstices. We created a Wassailing tradition to bless the yard and our gardens. We celebrate Lent for my husband and during that time I work on sacrifice and shadow work.

Take turns:

When my husband needs some time to relax I watch the baby. When I need time he takes him. Work together to make sure everyone gets a healthy amount of time to do the things they enjoy.

There will be moments where it is a struggle. There will be months that go by with no serious work. Get creative and see what you can do in the short moments you do have.

Last night I had my candles lit, the incense burning and I was ready to get to work. I heard my son wake up and my husband go to get him. I waited, but after a few minutes I could hear the cry of “mamma”. I blew out the candles and headed up to rock and soothe my little boy. We sat in the dark and snuggled. I could smell my incense on my skin and as he slowly fell back to sleep I paused and breathed deeply. I sent out a pray of gratitude and connected. This wasn’t the meditation I had planned, but it was magic of its own.


Sarah Lawless is an animistic witch, writer, and herbalist living in rural Ontario, Canada with her partner Alex, her three year old son, and a baby boy on the way. When she’s not chasing after the kiddo, Sarah works as a forager and herbalist crafting wild edibles and medicinals for her business Fern & Fungi. You could say she’s obsessed with herbalism, ethnobotany, native plants, and permaculture and you’d be correct. Sarah has been an author, teacher, and ritualist within the witchcraft community for the past 12 years and she can often be found teaching classes at herbal conferences and horticultural events as well as hosting rituals at the local Witches’ Sabbat and Kaleidoscope Gathering. Sarah’s idea of downtime usually involves baking sweets, cooking complex recipes, napping, and snuggling up with her man and binge watching Game of Thrones.

Once upon a time when I was childless (which seems very long ago, but has really only been three and a half years), I was a very active witch. I really do mean very active. I had my own personal magical practice working with my familiar spirits and the land, I worked with small groups of friends, I circled with a few large ritual groups, I was on the board of the local pagan festival, I taught workshops, I hosted rituals, I hosted events, and I wrote frequently about the practice of magic. Those who have known me for years will have noticed most of that has either completely stopped for the past few years, or has significantly slowed down.

I had my first son in 2014 and now I am about to have my second son this April. I love being a mom and I love my tiny adorable man who is so clever, funny, helpful, and such a goody-two-shoes, but I never could have imagined how incredibly tired I would be. I’m fairly certain small children have so much energy because they are secretly borrowing it from you! You know going in that babies and kids are going to be hard, but no one can really tell you just how hard until you experience it for yourself. It is a life-changing switch of going from an independent person who mainly has to worry about their own self-care to a parent who has to worry about tiny humans every second of every day… even when said tiny humans are sleeping. Free time is a distant dream as is uninterrupted sleep. If you’re lucky enough to have grandparents who babysit or have a good daycare program, then your “free time” becomes “do all the things you couldn’t do with the kiddo around time“. This means: laundry, dishes, house cleaning, emails, banking, groceries, cooking, and other fun tasks of adulting.

It is especially hard if you are a single parent, the other parents is absent or unhelpful, or you don’t have any family to rely on for help… but even if there are two awesome co-parents involved, the idea of fitting your magical practice in alongside parenting can seem daunting and impossible. It can be even harder when you get the fun reality check of discovering your coven, ritual group, and witchy friends are not kid-friendly. You may find yourself consistently sitting at home while the magic happens without you. Your childless friends may think reliable babysitters who are free when you need them fall from the sky, but if you aren’t near family it’s often not an option for many parents. Over the years I’ve watched a lot of friends drop out of their covens or the pagan community after they had children. Sometimes they come back, many times they do not.

I didn’t have the best experience when my first son was a baby. I didn’t have a reliable partner, I was thousands of miles from family, none of my ritual groups turned out to be baby or kid friendly, and some of my witchy friends even blatantly asked me not to visit them with my baby (this unexpectedly included friends who had their own kids). Isolation is not good when you have little ones and supportive friends, family, and community make all the difference in the world between a happy parent and a depressed parent.

I answered to these issues by leaving behind my pagan community for one that is kid-friendly, moving closer to family (as in 15 minutes away), and then leaving my previous partner who was abusive and not interested in parenting (despite claiming the opposite). I took care of my needs and what is best for my kid. I really miss my magical friends from the West Coast, but we try to keep in touch as best we can. Change can be hard and often painful, but if you find yourself in a similar situation as me, I can tell you now it was worth it.

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Where on earth are magical parents supposed to fit in magic? If you don’t have a family-friendly coven and/or an awesome partner or family to help you out so you can attend rituals, coven meetings, and festivals, you are going to need to focus on building and maintaining a personal magical practice at home. In the borrowed words of my father: “Keep it simple, stupid.”

The Magic of Birth and Babies

If you are pregnant, remember that birthing IS magic. You are becoming a doorway between the spirit and physical realms. You’re about to turn a spirit into a corporeal being — that is some heavy shit! Look into traditional rituals that prepare mamma and baby for the birth and the big changes that are about to happen. The blessing way ceremony popular in new age circles may verge on appropriation (what doesn’t these days?), but make it your own using your beliefs and practices from your own magical or cultural tradition. For both of my pregnancies, friends put together simple, personalized ceremonies that were really beautiful.

If you’ve recently had a baby there are many ceremonies you can perform which mainly consist of blessing and protecting the baby and new mother. You’ve just ripped a hole open between the worlds, you’d better ward it! You can look to cultural traditions or pull a rite from your magical tradition. A baby blessing usually involves holy water and also often the official naming of the baby. Baptism is pretty pagan if you look into its ancient history. You don’t need a coven, you can do this yourself or with your partner and a small group of friends.

Craft yourself a protection talisman and a birthing talisman. Willow placed under the birthing bed is supposed to help with the pain, but there is a lot of folklore and superstitions you could mine for information. Talismans to protect babies and small children are very common across cultures as they are believed to be more susceptible to illness, evil spirits, pesky pixies, and the evil eye. Research can also help you keep up your magical work so I’m not going to do it for you here!

Daily Devotions

So you have a baby or a toddler and not much free time, but you can still try to do one small thing daily for yourself and your deities or spirits. You can work on maintaining an altar or shrine with offerings of incense, libations, flowers, or food. I try to light good incense one to two times a day for my spirits. My current partner helps with this, which is awesome, and the toddler loves to help by blowing out the flame when I light the incense sticks. I also refresh the cut flowers on my ancestral altar every 1-2 weeks. My ancestral shrine currently gets more love than my main witchy altar, but I’m working on evening things out.

You can attempt to meditate once a day (or at least sit for a moment and do absolutely nothing at all) even if it’s only for 5-15 minutes. The best time for meditation is when the kiddo is asleep at naptime or bedtime. If you try to meditate when they’re awake, it’s often going to be as bad as trying to take a phone call while your toddler acts out to get your attention (when just a minute before they were completely ignoring you). That being said my partner is Buddhist and has started meditating in front of the kiddo and instead of just pestering him, the toddler has decided to join him in just “sitting” and demands his own cushion. It’s pretty cute.

Maybe you have a favourite piece of devotional liturgy or a litany you like to recite that makes you feel holy or more connected to your magic. Something easy to memorize that you can repeat once a day at a certain time. I also often found myself forgetting the words to lullabies and more frequently sing my son to sleep with soothing magical chants to the point that he requests them now that he can form full sentences. Eventually you can sing them together. Little ones love songs and singing and most don’t care whether you can carry a tune or not – they certainly can’t!

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Digging Deeper for Monthly Magic

Even practicing something once monthly can be hard, but it’s worth it. What is one thing that is important, that you promised you would do, that you really shouldn’t let lapse now that you are a parent? That one day or one hour of re-connection to spirit is incredibly nourishing to your soul. You need it, so make it happen! It could be your monthly coven meeting and ritual, it could be your local open sabbat ritual, or it could be something personal. I perform my solitary full moon rite every full moon and try to keep it simple and the same to make it manageable but still meaningful. It’s the one thing I promised I would do. If I lapse, man do my spirits get pissed! They don’t care how much I need to sleep and the bright full moon shining in my face at night, waking me up, certainly doesn’t either. If you have commitments to spirits you work with, it’s in your best interest to keep up with them. Apologize sincerely and leave good offerings when you fail.

I also tried to attend a local new moon women’s ritual, but couldn’t keep up. It’s something I know I can try to go back to. If I add something else to my monthly practice, it’s usually divination. I’m not a daily card puller, so once a month works well for me to bring out a favourite tarot deck. When the kiddos are older I will attempt to add my dark moon rite back into my regular practice, but right now juggling full and dark moon rituals would be too overwhelming. Know your limit, stay within it!

Magic on the Fly

If it’s just been too long since you’ve felt magical and witchy or your small, daily devotions aren’t nourishing you enough, then it’s time to step it up. Try to get a night off with a babysitter or invite your magical friends over to your place after the kiddo’s bedtime and have a good magical session and social catch-up with your friends. Do a simple ritual, read tarot or tea leaves, perform a needed spell, or go outside and soak up actual moonlight and starlight. Put aside the time and do it. Re-embrace your pre-kid witchy self.

Not everyone has witchy friends to call on or at least not ones that are nearby enough to come visit. Skype or face-time those far away magical best friends and talk about your magical practice and all things woo-woo. Sometimes even just talking about magic with others who practice and get it is immensely helpful and invigorating. Also, it’s nice to talk to adults, adults who talk about adult things using adult words –especially adults that don’t mention toilet training, diapers, or the hell of toddler bedtime at all. Forget you’re a mom or dad for a while and hang out with your fellow magical people.

If you’re really alone or are just a very private person, then it’s time to get your witch on. Get those hands dirty and do some spell work. It doesn’t matter if it’s something serious that needs doing or just refreshing your household protection charms — get down and dirty and do it. Make talismans for protection, luck, money, gardening, or sleep. Perform candle spells. Do a house cleansing and blessing. Take a ritual / spiritual cleansing bath complete with candles and herbs and oils. Craft herbal concoctions like salves, incense, magical oils, or a dream pillow. Break out those occult books you’ve been hoarding since your teens and mine them for crafty hands-on ideas. Steal some that super precious “free-time” and do one small thing.

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A Note On Precautions

So you’re a parent now and are responsible for the safety of tiny people. Be smart and responsible. You can’t shit where you eat anymore. This means you don’t curse in your house, you don’t summon dangerous entities in your house, you don’t open portals to unsafe places in your house. You don’t do gorey or kinky rituals in your house the kids could walk in on that might scar them for life. Now you have to do it at a friend’s house or take it outside – preferably completely off your property. Go find a crossroad or a spot in a park or the woods for your witchery. Save some things until you are kid-free at your local pagan festival. Seriously, don’t even let some spirits or deities know you have kids. Children’s innocent souls are tender and delicious.

You’re pregnant? Yeah, the hedgecrossing wherever/whenever you want, the shape-shifting, and any possessory work is going to take a big hit. Reel it in until your bun in the oven turns into a toddler. I still do some dream work, but it’s much tamer and safer than my pre-mom, pre-pregnant self practiced (even unconsciously). Then there’s that awkward moment when your witchy friend’s kids and husband, who are tired of being haunted, ask you to “talk” to mom about her loose boundaries with spirits and come over and shut all the doors to the otherworld in the house whether she likes it or not and give her a talking to. Oh the magical parents I’ve known who have done dumb things…. Letting ghosts in the house on purpose or getting possessed and speaking in tongues is not going to impress your kids.  No, just no. You’re a parent now. Ward all the things and check those wards at least monthly.

Be cautious, but no need to go overboard. A simple spell candle, a divination, a blessing, the crafting of talismans, consecrations of tools, etc are not going to be a big deal to do in your home when you have children. Just save those Hekate devotions for the crossroad and the necromancy for the graveyard or the forest. Keep those baneful herbs and any fetiches or tools that can’t be handled by anyone but you locked up and out of reach. As my partner would say: “common sense, yo”.

New Moon weekend & Lent

Friday night I had a friend come over and I spent some time doing some healing work on her. We worked on aligning her chakras, we smoothed out her aura and unblocked some energy and worked on some breathing exercises. She left feeling much better and I felt better because I could help her.

I heard about the binding spell going around the net, but I had other plans for the weekend already. I appreciate what people are working towards, I’ll just help in my own way. I also think that we can’t condemn those who do work on that spell. I saw some angry posts about the 3 fold law and all that. Everyone makes a choice. If someone wants to do a spell, then rock on, do your thing. Just make sure you have your ducks in a row so you are taking care of yourself. That is my take on it.

Saturday I prepped for my new moon ritual. I sat and let myself channel some mantras and ideas for the meditation.  Sunday I had a small circle of women over and we enjoyed some baby snuggles and then headed down to create sacred space. I think everyone enjoyed themselves, it was great to have people open up, share, and connect. Perhaps this is how I will be serving in my role as priestess. I plan to host another New Moon ritual next month. We spent our time doing a meditation to empower ourselves with warrior spirit so that we can go out in the world and be fierce and strong.

The world is currently a crazy place. Empowering ourselves is an excellent way to balance the crazy.

The 21 day Stay Sacred practice I was working on has come to an end. It was a fabulous time and I met many great people. It has inspired me to work on my daily practices. I was doing so well at taking 10 minutes for myself, and I could tell in my mood that it made a difference. When I got lazy and stopped taking that tiny bit of time I got cranky and tired again. It is amazing how a small amount of time sinking into your sacred space can make a huge impact. It also let me work on making my sacred space. I’ve been slowly creating my temple space (away from small hands and eyes), and I have ideas for the future.

Lent is also coming up this week. We always observe it since my husband is Catholic. We talked about it in advance this year and we’ll do our usual thing of trying to eat better and be healthy, but we are also going to give up screen/device time between 6-8pm every night. This will allow us to really be present for dinner and the bedtime routine etc. I’m looking forward to unplugging and it will help us work on eating mindfully. This tiny sacrifice will give us more family time. I look forward to it. Do you celebrate Lent? Do you practice sacrifice or do you do something else?

Finding the tribe

As my long time readers know, I left behind a large coven and large community when I moved to the United States. I have struggled in the 4.5 years I have been here to recreate what I had or to find like-minded groups. I am searching for something and I am not sure what it is.

I thought I had finally found it. My coven was small but it was slowly getting stronger. Then the past few months it very slowly fell apart. Not from drama or anything bad, just from us being at different points on our paths. We each needed something else. I won’t lie, it was a bit of a kick in the teeth. I felt like I was finally getting everything organized, I had finally re-written all my rituals and worked on all the things and was ready to have my tradition be born. I did my ritual, I set my intention and then it so very softly split apart.

As I sat in my temple space and pondered the nature of things, I realized this was probably a blessing. It lit the fire back in me to make sure I was working on my sacredness. Everything had been on hold while I was pregnant and now it was time for me to learn how to balance the mother and the priestess.

I was forced to re-think things. I stumbled across a free course run by Elle North and I enjoyed it. Ideas began to grow and then I found another free course run by Sora Surya No. I am currently working my way through the content and I am feeling so zen. The videos and discussions with these wonderful woman is reminding me to find the sacred within and how to keep the sacred in my business.

Granted, I don’t have a business yet, but there are seeds planted. Little things I could offer to help offset the cost of daycare and all the bills. Living paycheck to paycheck is not fun, but the blessing of my son is worth the struggle. I am getting more creative at how to be careful with our finances, learning what I actually need vs what I want.

I am also learning how to embrace sisterhood through the net. How to live in the online tribe of energy we can all share. I am reminded that I am not alone, that I can create new connections and everything will come to me if I ask and am open to receiving.

Breathe in, breath out and connect.

 

Blessings

It is hard to believe it has been almost 9 weeks since I gave birth. People keep asking me if its like I expected it to be. I don’t really know what to tell them, I had no expectations going into this. Every child is different and every day is a new adventure.

I can say that we are so in love with our little boy. He is such an amazing little person. Listening to him try to copy the things we say is adorable. Watching his smile makes me smile. The hubby says he loves to watch us look at each other because there is so much love.

I hope to teach him all about different religions. I want him to explore and find the spirituality that fits with him. Yes, he’ll learn about my faith, but he’ll also go to church with Nana, we’ll explore other spiritual paths together and when he’s ready I hope he finds a faith that fills him with peace and joy.

The hubby and I have discussed different traditions we hope to build, traditions from our families we hope to blend and in the end we’ll hopefully have fun and meaningful things for our holidays.

I am feeling blessed in what we have. I give thanks for how things have worked out so far. I give thanks for the wonderful team that helped bring this little person into the world safely.

I haven’t had much chance to do things just for me. The few times I have managed to go and enter sacred space are few, but I have had a chance to do so. I am hopeful that I can get back into a regular routine with my spirituality.

I have ideas on how to build my temple space, it will just take time. And figuring out how to keep it private from the tween eyes will be a bit of a challenge, but I think I can do it. I’m also hopeful about the community of my coven and how we will grow. I will plant all these thoughts and blessings and do my best to water them daily with my gratitude.

 

 

Bump news

We’re in the countdown of 3ish months till the baby arrives. People have been asking me if I am “freaking out” yet. I’m not sure what exactly I am supposed to freak out about, there are too many things I could stress over.

The only thing that has really been worrying me is support networks. As in, I don’t have one. The closest family is 3 hours away. While I know people around town, I haven’t formed any hardcore best friends networks. The few people I was just starting to get to know I haven’t seen in months and months because I was so tired out and then busy with the move. While I have my coven-mates, they are all super busy people.

The hubby has a friend who I know will be there for us if we need it, but it can be a little awkward as I am still getting to know them. Its not like I am going to form a super best bud group in less then 3 months. I realize that. And then I get worried.

Back home I knew if I needed anything there were at least 5 different people that would be there in a heartbeat. And then at least 10 people who would be there on the phone making plans to be there when they could. Here, I feel a little lost.

Sadly, the places I thought I would find like minded people hasn’t worked out the way I thought it would. And as a 1 car household and living in a place with crappy bus service it makes it even more difficult to get out to do things and meet people. I have to make sure I am working around the hubbies schedule on top of finding an event or something that I think will be a great time to meet friends. It has been more frustrating then I usually like to talk about. I gave up a bit for a while. And now here we are.

I don’t know what I’ll do about it at this point. I guess I just keep on keeping on and hoping that I can get out to meet people and form those tighter connections. The hubby reminded me that his mom will be down after the baby is born and my mom is coming and so I’ll have a bit of support then.

In more positive news, I have managed to maintain the weight they want me too, I passed the glucose test and I am doing yoga daily. No weird cravings. I have craved a lot of PB flavoured things, salty snacks and cheeseburgers. The cheeseburgers I will blame on the fact that I need to have more iron. I also really want my drinks to be cold so I am thankful we have an ice maker on the fridge.

The nursery is empty and I know I really should get on putting it all together, but I think that will really happen after the baby shower. My mother-in-law has several pieces of furniture for us so once she comes to visit with them all I am sure we’ll get to work on things.

We still haven’t settled on names. Our in-laws are due in less then a month so once they have their child (like us they are waiting to be surprised) we’ll knuckle down on our name list. We don’t want to fall in love with a name, only to have it be what our niece or nephew is. We do have a list we are working on, but it is top secret 🙂

 

 

 

January

I’ve always worked in places where people may tell you that they think you are great, but it is never formally recognized. Today that changed. Our team was awarded “Outstanding Team” and apparently there were a landslide of nomination letters. It feels good to know that the positive energy and hard work we all put out there is noticed. We’re pretty lucky. We have a great team, great bosses and a fun environment to work in. Not everyone is as blessed.

The cold weather has found us and I suspect this long weekend will be a quiet one at home. There have been a lot of expenses out of the blue lately, so we are living life pretty tight. Its ok though, we’re pretty happy to hole up at home and relax. I think I’ll be digging through my scraps to make a lunch bag and we’ll unpack some of the basement. I have a quilt to work on as well and maybe I’ll think about making things for the baby.

I also want to work on warding the house and getting ready for having the coven over. I moved all my altar stuff myself, so if I unpack it and anything is broken… well that is my fault. I think it will be ok though. So far everything I have opened has survived the move so fingers crossed this continues. I have sorta figured out the directions in our new home and at least when I circle next I’ll have some idea of where everything is.

I think we’re getting settled. It is beginning to feel like home. The wee one was pretty excited about her new room and is playing with ideas of how she wants to decorate.  We told her it is her space so she can re-arrange however she likes. She asked for my opinion on a few things and I encouraged her to spend some time thinking about it and to try out a few things so she could see what she liked best.

Happy 2016! I hope  your year is off to a good start!

 

 

 

Grateful for little things…

Halloween was full of trick or treating and watching the kids trade candy and barter for their fave kinds. The wee one loved her costume and had a lot of fun with her friends. I managed to walk all over and didn’t get tired out. The wee one was kind enough to keep me supplied with candy as we went. Yum. She is still excited about the baby and has been really great about things like “No, we can’t get that food because the smell makes your step-mom sick right now”

When we dropped her off last time she gave me a big hug and told me she was going to miss me. Cue all the feels. All of them. I managed to not have the sappy cry and told her I would miss her too.

The Friday before Halloween, I hung out with my coven. We had a lovely outdoors ritual on a farm. We sat around a bonfire, listened to a folk story and had a beautifully witchy time. I am pretty happy to have such fabulous people in my life. The night was crisp and it has been a long time since I had an outdoors night ritual. It made me miss camping. I love watching the fire and listening to the night.

I’ve had some dr’s appointments and ultra sounds and the little poppy-seed is growing. I’ve got more energy, and I am getting the hang of going to bed early when I think I need it. I do get a little bit overwhelmed at the thought of all the stuff we are going to accumulate, but car seats and cribs and all that are necessary.

Now I am back to my crafting grind of finishing up all the Christmas and Yule gifts. I’m really glad I started early as it is keeping me from feeling super crazy. There is still some crazy, but I will work through it.

I hope you all had a fantastic Witchy New Year! I am feeling so full of gratitude for all these small things and for big things and I am really looking forward to the coming year.