Samhain prep

Samhain is just around the corner. I feel a bit unprepared. October is always a month where I go inwards, but this month it feels like there has been more reflection than usual. My boss has asked if I am ok and I explained I am really deep this month. Part of that is probably the lack of sleep, but I think with so much going on in the world my brain needed a vacation to process.

I have managed to get a few things in order, I’ve made eye appointments, dentist appointments and even booked a self-care day off. My creativity has been ramping up, but I haven’t had the energy to actually put those ideas into motion. This month has been about planning and plotting.

I did get a few items crafted for the store on the weekend and I got some more Halloween costume bits finished.

I will have ornaments posted in the store starting in November. I hope people enjoy them. felt owl ornaments I also have a Halloween sale on the Little Familiars in the shop. Starting today through Sunday they will be 15% off.  If you have had your eye on one, now is the time to grab it!

I hope to get the house cleaned up and organized this week, we plan to move our desk into another room and then maybe we will have a writing space again.

With a little one Halloween will be busy. There are a few things I will still take care of on the 31st, but we will do our ancestor meal and any family Samhain celebrations on November 1st. This will give me two days to do family and spiritual things. I think this blend will also make sure I can enjoy it all and not feel rushed.

Once the little one is in bed on the 31st, I will redo our house wards. I actually go out and walk our property and smudge and cleanse it. Then I will go to each area and redo the ward for it. I will also leave an offering out for the spirits of the land in thanks for their protection.

I always have an ancestor altar set up and then on November 1st we will have a meal and set a place for the ancestors. I still have to figure out what we will do for our meal, but I have a feeling it will be a stuffed squash.  Samhain is also when I will banish the things I want to remove from my life and do work to bring in new energy and ideas for the coming year.

And on the 31st I will bring in my oracle cards to work. Everyone likes to pull a card and talk about it all day. At home I will do my own tarot and oracle readings to see what is coming this winter. altar with oracle cards

What is your plan for Samhain? Do you celebrate on October 31st or November 1st? Do you have family traditions you follow? Let me know in the comments, I would love to hear from you!

 

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Money Magick

Sometimes life is tough. This world runs on money and there are times when that is in short supply. I know we are more blessed then some. We both have full-time jobs, and while my husband’s job isn’t great, I at least make a decent amount and have wonderful health insurance. Not everyone is that lucky.

Still, we live paycheque to paycheque. I have student loans in Canada to still pay, and while some say “But you don’t live there anymore, why do you care?” I care because it is my debt and because the person who is a co-signer on that loan still lives there. It would really screw them up if I suddenly stopped paying it.  So every month we scrimp together some cash to pay that bill along with all the other bills.

Daycare and diapers adds up. We have other debts out there that we are still trying to figure out how to pay. Yet, when I start to really feel like things are going to be terrible the Goddess gives me a little hope. Someone will buy another tarot reading. Someone will purchase a custom. All the money I make in my store I use towards my Canadian bill. That means we have a bit more cash here for something else.

The kindness of others also goes a long way. When I had to rush home to see my family because of a medical issue I was super stressed. I asked for guidance and the Goddess and God helped me find a super cheap flight. Then, out of the blue I was gifted a cheque in the amount of my flight. People around me care. They see the struggle and did what they could to help. I was told it was in appreciation of all I do for them all. Community is a thing of beauty. It doesn’t matter what faith you are, compassion is a language everyone knows. I won’t lie, they made me cry.

Prayers are wonderful, when community can help it is great,  but sometimes we need to do a little extra work ourselves.

On that note I thought I would share a bit of magick…

If you have time to let a spell slowly build, then I always start any magick on the Dark Moon. As the moon grows to full, the spell builds up. Then by the Full Moon it has usually come to fruition.

I add cinnamon to my spells to give it a little extra kick. Cinnamon is also seen as a spice that brings in money so that also helps.

When I see a coin on the sidewalk I pick it up. This is a tiny gift from the universe, accept it. Every bit can help.

Create a spell trigger. Make up a mantra, phrase or something else that will remind you of your spell. Then write it out and put it somewhere you will see it. Or create a phrase you can use as a password and change that so every time you type it in you are putting more energy out there. Set alarms and when they go off, repeat your mantra or think about the spell.

Use your daily journal as another way to add energy. Write out your goals, write your mantra, and visualize the success of your spell as you do this.

Remember to take a moment. Thank the Gods for what they have helped provide to you. Think about the blessings you have. Sometimes we get so lost in what we need we forget to pause and enjoy what we have.

Best of luck! I’d love to hear any little things you do to try to bring in money magick!

Take back the fierceness

I’ve been following the social media accounts of many strong women. They are inspiring, so much passion and fierceness. Sometimes I think “I used to be like that, what happened?” After much pondering I’ve decided I don’t want to say that anymore. I’ve decided to take back my fierceness.

I know part of it was age. As I got older I lost a bit of fire. And that was good. I used to have a bit too much passion and it was an out of control wildfire. I wouldn’t take the time to actually think through what was coming out of my mouth, I didn’t do my research fully, and I let mama bear drive my emotions. I slowed down in my late 20s- 30s and got my emotional feet under me. I am happy with that change.

The other part was dealing with the judgement and discrimination when I moved to the USA. Suddenly, I was considered too inappropriate, too loud, too strange, I showed too much skin, I  had crazy hair… so many things. I let it wear me down. Part of that was my stubborn nature, I was like “Well fine, I’ll be boring” but I got over that. Part of it was dealing with a totally different community than I was used to. I am someone who adapts, so I tried to blend in more to the people I was meeting. The midwest is more conservative than the west coast and so some of my flamboyant nature was stamped down.

I was put through an emotional trial with some stuff that went on in our life. I struggled to fit in, I let fear run my brain with all this crazy immigration shit and politics.

A month ago I had a realization. I’m never going to fully fit in with the pagan community here. I come from different roots and I am tired of trying to find my tribe. I’m at a point in my life where I know what is important to me. I know how I like to worship.  I’ve been walking this religious path for over 22 years. I don’t need a group to validate me.

That realization was freeing. Along with that I realized I need to go back to my fierceness for my family. I need to be strong and powerful to teach my son how to exist in this fucked up world. I need to go back to being the crazy soul who dances in the grocery store. I need to show him how to live life with passion and joy. That means I need to get back to my roots to be me fully.

I am embracing my nature. I am one of those super positive people who believes in other people. I am a cheerleader. I like to support others. I know that in the world today people like me are  thought to be too fake, there is a mindset that we are only pretending to be supportive so that we can look good. This isn’t true. I really am a person who likes to lift others up. I enjoy saying “yes, you are awesome! you are beautiful!” The problem is, I get drained. People will use me up to feel good and then toss me aside.

So I have learned to put limits on my support. I need to take care of me as well.  Now I’m going to say “Hey, I need my own time and space.”  When I can, I’ll be back to support in ways that don’t drain me dry.

I also used to post about all sorts of magick, meditations, dreams and the awesome spiritual stuff I was going through. I had to stop because of some “life stuff”, but I think I am finally at a point where I can bring back some of that without it causing headaches for my family. I am pickier about what I share now, so I doubt it will be as deep as it used to be, but there might be more actual witchcraft posted here again. Crazy, I know!

I am probably going to give up on the small circles I was trying to create. I don’t have the energy or time to run a group or host space for others. I am going to go deep into my own practice. I will offer support through social media for people who need it by sharing rituals or ideas that others may find useful. I will be there to bounce ideas off of, I may continue to teach my 101 online when I have the desire to do so. When it fits my schedule I will try to get out to group stuff so I can connect, but I am not going to stress over it anymore.

My fierceness will come through in many different ways. The biggest way will be doing what I  want and taking care of myself. I know that the idea of self love and care can be a weird topic for many. I’m going to own it and be me. Cause, I fucking love who I am. That statement alone is a revolution in this world. Time to be me. Take it or leave it world. I don’t need your validation or permission.

The season of the witch is here. I’m going to own it.

 

 

 

 

Blessed Lughnasadh

Blessings of the harvest! The Wheel turns onwards. I am having a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that we are already in August. It seems like summer just started and here I am prepping for the fall.

sunflower

Our mini sunflowers came in and are now decaying. We are waiting to see if we get any seeds to harvest. Our giant ones are still growing, currently they are about 5 feet tall and the flowers are starting to be created. We are very excited.

Sadly, the huge storm system killed our pepper plants. The pots were overflowing one night and we think the plants did not enjoy that much water.  My husband was able to harvest a large bowl of jalapenos, but I don’t think the last few on it will make it. We’ll see.

Pepper plant in a pot

We were busy last night so I didn’t take any time in my temple space. We did play in the yard and garden a bit, so at least we took a moment to appreciate nature. I was talking with a friend about how hard it is to find the balance to do your spiritual practices with a little person. We have to learn to make magick in different ways. So we had cuddles, giggles and a baby running around the yard. That is a special magick that I will cherish while I have it. Too soon the baby will be too cool for hanging with mom. We get so wrapped up in the idea that holidays are about rituals and tarot and specific things. Sometimes celebrating means hugs and watching dragonflies flit about your yard.

I’ve been journaling every day through Sora’s 21 day challenge and am going to continue with it. I used to journal all the time, but fell out of the practice. I have found it a nice addition to my morning routine.

I completed another custom and have been selling a few tarot readings. If you are interested in either head on over to the shop to check out the listings. The shop will be closing for a week or two in August as I will be away.

I hope that your celebration was fun filled, whatever you were able to do. Bright Blessings as we head towards Fall!

Sunflower decaying in a pot

 

 

Moon Magick at Work

The past few nights have been restless ones. The Moon energy has been calling and keeping several of us awake. This morning my son was determined to be up before our 5:30 am alarm. Caffiene for me today!

I have started to do a short 5 min flow of yoga in the morning and my son will sit with me and watch. Sometimes he does the “ha” breathing with me, sometimes he lifts his arms when I do, but usually he stands in front of me and snuggles in as I try to gently move around him. Sweet boy. He fills my heart.

I followed my intuition and packed up a mini altar to bring to work. I am blessed to work somewhere that I can be out and open about my faith. So I have set it up and it is in my line of sight, so all day long I will be reminded of my magick and the work I plan to do tonight.

Work Altar

I used my battery operated tea lights and have a selection of stones and crystals. I also brought in my Goddess Cards and we’ve been pulling them throughout the morning.

You can also see in the background a few of my digital downloads that are available in my etsy shop.

 

It is nice to have something just in my line of sight. Even as I type this I can see the orange of the altar cloth and the flickering light. Whenever I look at it fully I run through the short mantra I created. I am slowly building up the magick so that tonight when I do my ritual I will be energized.

Pagan altar with battery tealights and a Bast statue

I have been prepping to film my Wicca 101 course and that will be available online. It is free of charge, this is my service as a priestess. First I am re-arranging my sacred space so that the flow works better for me. I hope to get the large part of that done tonight and then next week start filming.

If you are interested or know someone who might wish to take a Wicca 101 please feel free to stop by my Facebook page to send me a message.

My Little Familiars are selling well, I have had several custom orders recently. I am so happy that people love them. Feel free to check out the two listed in the shop and let me know if you are interested in a custom.

And lastly a bit of love for other shops, I recently used my birthday money to get myself two pairs of earrings. I love them! One pair is leather and shaped to look like feathers and the other is a silver spiral.  You can check out their shops here and here. Woman in earrings

Happy Full Moon! Work your magick and have a wonderfully witchy day!

 

Taking the plunge

I’ve been running New Moon circles for the past few months. They have been small and intimate and I’m enjoying my time in circle with friends. Last month and this month life has gotten in the way so we didn’t do them, but we still managed to connect at Beltane.

Community starts small in my mind. It is a seed that needs to be tended. I’ve heard others complain when an event only has 3 people show up.  I would celebrate that 3 people did show up and enjoy the smaller group energy. Yes, larger groups bring more energy, but with them is a bit more chaos as well. I’m happy to start small.

I made a decision to run my Wicca 101 again over the summer and to do online content as well as in person. I worry that I won’t be able to deliver my content in the way I want, but I am willing to try. Otherwise it won’t ever happen.

Last week I had a dream. In it I was in a large swimming pool with several other ladies. Most of these were ladies I follow on Instagram. We were doing some sort of exercise and the person I was paired up with suddenly opened up and began to release all their fears and worries. I witnessed it for them and guided them through. Someone else swam by and asked what we were doing and I said “We’re releasing burdens” Once we were done I swam away from the group and stared down the length of the pool. I began to swim. I didn’t quite put my face in the water, but then I told myself to get over the fear and just go in. I took a deep breath and submerged myself.

I floated down to the bottom of the pool where I crossed my legs and sat in the silence. I was held in the embrace of the water, my hair floating around me.  While there I began to speak to the Goddess and  I ran through an initiation to re-initiate and re-take my vows as a 3rd degree priestess. (I hold my third in my old coven) I then came up for air and the group was standing there in the water waiting for me. There was a sense of calmness, joy and belonging.

I’m holding onto that and as we are about to hit the New Moon I am ready to start my projects and get organized. My notes are coming together and I hope to start my filming next week. Here we go, into the water.

 

New Moon weekend & Lent

Friday night I had a friend come over and I spent some time doing some healing work on her. We worked on aligning her chakras, we smoothed out her aura and unblocked some energy and worked on some breathing exercises. She left feeling much better and I felt better because I could help her.

I heard about the binding spell going around the net, but I had other plans for the weekend already. I appreciate what people are working towards, I’ll just help in my own way. I also think that we can’t condemn those who do work on that spell. I saw some angry posts about the 3 fold law and all that. Everyone makes a choice. If someone wants to do a spell, then rock on, do your thing. Just make sure you have your ducks in a row so you are taking care of yourself. That is my take on it.

Saturday I prepped for my new moon ritual. I sat and let myself channel some mantras and ideas for the meditation.  Sunday I had a small circle of women over and we enjoyed some baby snuggles and then headed down to create sacred space. I think everyone enjoyed themselves, it was great to have people open up, share, and connect. Perhaps this is how I will be serving in my role as priestess. I plan to host another New Moon ritual next month. We spent our time doing a meditation to empower ourselves with warrior spirit so that we can go out in the world and be fierce and strong.

The world is currently a crazy place. Empowering ourselves is an excellent way to balance the crazy.

The 21 day Stay Sacred practice I was working on has come to an end. It was a fabulous time and I met many great people. It has inspired me to work on my daily practices. I was doing so well at taking 10 minutes for myself, and I could tell in my mood that it made a difference. When I got lazy and stopped taking that tiny bit of time I got cranky and tired again. It is amazing how a small amount of time sinking into your sacred space can make a huge impact. It also let me work on making my sacred space. I’ve been slowly creating my temple space (away from small hands and eyes), and I have ideas for the future.

Lent is also coming up this week. We always observe it since my husband is Catholic. We talked about it in advance this year and we’ll do our usual thing of trying to eat better and be healthy, but we are also going to give up screen/device time between 6-8pm every night. This will allow us to really be present for dinner and the bedtime routine etc. I’m looking forward to unplugging and it will help us work on eating mindfully. This tiny sacrifice will give us more family time. I look forward to it. Do you celebrate Lent? Do you practice sacrifice or do you do something else?