Fallow Times and the New Moon

Fallow times can be a strange time. Every so often Bast will step back from my life and there will be a stillness in my practice. There is always the initial “Oh crap!” and panic when I feel the disconnect, but then I settle in and know that there is a reason.

Usually she moves back so that I can work with someone else for a bit, to learn a lesson or because I need my butt kicked into gear. Every time there is something that I learn from it, and every time she comes back and our connection is solid again. Eventually, she might vanish forever, but so far we have always been reunited.

It took a few weeks for me to really realize that we were entering a fallow time. I had noticed that Freyja was poking me more often, that signs from her were appearing all over and that distracted me a bit from the fact that I didn’t feel the closeness I usually did with Bast.

When I realized it, there was a sense that this was different.  I know there are several retrogrades occurring and we were heading into the new moon so the energy was strange, but I felt like I needed to really acknowledge this fallow time.

So I followed my intuition. I grieved in my heart for our separation and took many of my statues down to the temple space. I created an altar in the West quarter, covering it with a black cloth and then laid my statues and shrine items down on it. Then I covered it all in a beautiful blue silk cloth and said that when it was time everything would go back to where it belonged.

I sat with this feeling and felt the silence. I busied myself with cleaning my altar and redecorating for the season. I pulled out my pendulum and my tarot cards and began to work with them.

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I haven’t sat down to explore this new relationship with Freyja yet. She is definitely around, I found myself reading fiction books about her, and stumbling across memes and articles and all sorts of other things relating to her. 2 years ago I had told her that I wasn’t going to buy anything specific for her shrine until I knew she was sticking it out. She had requested roses and I said no, maybe later. This year my husband decided to plant a rose bush. One with big pink roses. “Well,” I thought to myself, “that is interesting.”

I have found myself putting on my winged scarf that makes me think of her. My amber jewelry has made its way into rotationmore often. Little things to remind me and nudge me. So we’ll see where this goes. I am proceeding slowly.

Leading up to this New Moon I have been really in synch with my intuition. I got to spend some time playing with divination tools and I have found myself slipping into my readings with ease again. My dreams are coming back as well, especially now that the little man sleeps better.

I’ve gotten my butt in gear and started my exercising again and I am trying hard to eat better. I am determined to teach my little man how to eat healthy and exercise so that he can live a full and active life. The only real way to do this is to lead by example. This moon has me thinking of health and living well.

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What are you goals this moon? What do you plan to manifest?

I am beginning to look over my Wicca 101 course and I have plans to create some videos so I can teach online. My goal is to teach again this summer: both in person and online.  If you are interested in my 101 keep an eye on my Facebook page for details.

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Epagomenal Days 2015

Since I took the Kemetic classes last year and Bast has been nudging me for years to learn more I decided to give Wep Ronpet a go this year. I wasn’t super prepared, but so far its ok.

I am following the KO temple’s days since they are close enough to me and I wasn’t ready to try to figure out the math yet. Next year I may see if there is any difference. So the first day was on Wednesday. Last weekend I made a necklace as my protective amulet to wear.  I was also inspired to grab a bracelet I made months ago to wear through these days as well. I had made it on a whim and yesterday realized it had 5 different coloured stars on it. I guess there is one for each of the Gods and Goddesses.

I have never really worked with any of these Gods and Goddesses. I know bits and pieces about them from my research and from reading other people’s encounters. Going simple for my first year seemed like the right choice.

I printed out images of each of them and then glued them to card-stock. I set up my dresser to be a temporary shrine and each day the card of the deity is placed in the shrine, they each get 2 cherries and a shot glass of cool purified water. As I set up I also pull one of my Ancient Egyptian tarot cards. Before bed each night I pour the water into my plants, and I put the cherries outside for the animals.

I’ve also worn a white shirt each day and light coloured bottoms. This is my nod to wearing white in ritual. That has been a bit of a struggle since I only have a small selection of light coloured clothes and only so many work appropriate white shirts. I’ve made it through 3 days and with the weekend coming I have more options.

I brought my plush Bast to work and she is keeping an extra eye on me this week. My coworkers were amused. I also have a standing desk and so every time my reminder goes off to stand or sit down, I take a minute to stretch and have a moment of quiet.

So far, there hasn’t been any big connections or moments, but it feels good to be doing something. My coven is celebrating Lammas this weekend as well and some of the things we do tie in well with Wep Ronpet. I am always up really early in the week so it will be easy to collect all the statues to put out on the deck. They will be charged with the power of Ra’s rays and I will do something for Wep Ronpet.

Moments of “Ah!”

The last few months I have been struck with inspiration. I’ve been crafting like mad and doing research. As I made another viking inspired piece of jewelry I paused and pondered. Was all this Viking inspired stuff from Freyja?

The hubby has some Danish in his background. He’s been joking about it a bunch. So much we decided to be vikings for Halloween. So I’ve been doing research and am remembering how much I loved to sew costumes back when I was in the SCA. I’ve been looking at jewelry and trying to find beads and all that.

While doing all this I also pulled out an old rune necklace and am working on fixing it. At that point I realized that I was also following several people from Europe on instagram who did a lot of Norse work. So I paused at that moment and thought about my Goddess.

Bast has always been the focal point. She is fine with Freyja, but I flat out said that unless Freyja was going to be sticking around I would not be going out to buy statues and things. Things got quiet for a while, but now I have this sudden influence on my life and crafts. I wonder if she is trying to let me know she is still around. I poured a shot of alcohol for her a few weeks ago and pulled out the small dish I had bought last year for her. I gave her some fresh water and left it at that.

So much has been going on in my life with so many changes that I have probably not been paying attention to the little pokes as well as I should. These things happen. I’ll try to be a bit more aware.

As I write this my desktop wallpaper also changed to the photo I took of some of my object I have given to her in the Shrine. Check, I’ll make sure to do a little meditating tonight to focus on her. It will be good to do a little work.

Happy Beltaine/Beltane/Mayday/Samhain

Whatever you celebrate today I hope it is a lovely day. We have sunshine and warm weather. I didn’t do much last night. I was sleepy and after a visit to the dr there wasn’t much time left in the evening. So I put out some oats and almond milk for the fey folk, poured fresh water for Bast and filled a glass with vodka for Freyja.

I lit my candles for a few mins and pulled a card. Most of my readings lately have been about me completing projects, or being near to completing a project and a reminder that I can handle any changes, that I can make my reality and that I have the power to do as I wish. These are good reminders.

I’ve been busy lately. The hubby and I both took a music class through March and April, I’ve been getting out to discussions and coffee meet-ups and we’ve been at the gym or out taking walks. I’m happy the nice weather is here. My music reading skills are rusty, but coming back after my ukulele class. I hope to keep practicing this summer to get stronger.

I have all sorts of plans for the summer and fall. I’ve been reading a book on organization and it is getting me inspired. I have multiple craft projects on the go. I want to get out and enjoy the weather. And of course take time to sit in my garden and enjoy it.

I haven’t decided yet if I will run a Wicca 101 this summer or not. I will probably leave that until June to decide. I want to look over and revamp the materials I have for the class and there are a few other things I need to dig out and look at as well.

We did a bit of magick at Ostara with the local community. I hope that the ideas we planted will take root and everyone will start to come together. It is always fun to meet a new person and see how their faith differs from mine and how it is the same. It is a wonderful chance for us to learn from each other. I’m pretty happy with the community events that have been happening and I hope to do what I can to help keep that energy up.

Today though I will focus on myself and my love. I pulled some energy down this morning and surrounded myself with a golden bubble of energy. I said good morning to Ra in the sky. I stopped to enjoy the flowers in the garden. After work I will take time for the hubby and I to relax and have some quality time. And tonight I will light my candles, meditate and work a little magick.

I hope you all find some time for self-love today! I have a May challenge for us all, but I am going to wait till later to post it. Be gentle on yourself and take a moment to smile.

Blessed Beltaine!

Meditation: Jan 31 2015 and musings.

I’ve been pondering a dream I had about a White Cobra that was a guardian of a mountain.  Cobras and snakes are often in my meditations and are one of my spirit animals. Those who have been following me for awhile may remember me researching winged cobras. I had one that was around for awhile, and I think it was Wadjet, but its hard to know.

So I had several people offer suggestions on the White Cobra and I have let it simmer in my mind. Last night I meditated as I drifted off to sleep. Tonight I dug back through my dream and journey diary and some threads are starting to maybe come together.

First though, last nights meditation.

I was about to head into my astral temple when Freyja stopped me. She handed me something that I thought was a staff, but then as she walked away I looked down and realized it was a gigantic skeleton key. I examined it but was unsure why she gave it to me. I took it with me into my space and hung it off a branch of a tree.

One of my snakes that guards the tree slithered out to examine it. The snake was long, white, with yellow markings. It wrapped around the key and proceeded to have a nap.

I sensed something behind me and turned to find a cow munching on some grass. I stared at it and headed towards it quietly. I reached out to touch the large curved horns on its head and pricked my finger on the tip of the horn. Some of my blood ran down the horn and I took my finger back. The cow continued to eat the grass.

I turned and saw that the grass was all turning to sand. I walked over to a round disk and said I would allow myself to be moved if this space prevented a discussion. I was moved to a desert. There was nothing around and the wind was blowing. A storm was coming up. I knew I would be buried alive by the sand, but I was not worried. I lay back and let it happen. I know that sometimes we must let go. As the sand buried me I fell through it and appeared in a black pyramid. The stones were dark, there was no real light.

I could see a long tunnel leading out of the center room, and could only catch glimpses of images on the walls. A voice echoed through the room saying one word. “Child”. I called out asking for some sort of hint as to who it was. A throne appeared with a dark figure on it. The head was a male lion, but then the mouth opened and the lion vanished and a different head came forth. Before I could figure out what the head was I was woken up.

Today I flipped through my journal.

The cow has appeared in my space before, but I had no interaction with it. I know lions have made appearances along with bone monkies and alligators/crocs. I had a dream before of getting a skeleton key tattoo on my back with a rose. Bast and Freyja have often appeared as I work with them. Cats of all types, panthers, tigers, kittens… and then all the snakes. Cobras, pythons… regular snakes… Once, and only once did Set appear in a dream. He used me with permission of Bast to pass on a message to someone I knew.

I don’t know what any of it means, but I will continue to ponder. I am often doing magick of some sort in my dreams, spells to protect, spells to heal, all sorts of spells. I am often battling things or tsunamis and twisters are involved. I think I will have to get more specific and ask for clarification before I sleep. For now I am going to pull out the Book of Doors and pull a card or two.

So, the first card that half fell out and thus needed to be pulled is Udjit ( Ta, #3). Snakes. Second card, Apet (Aah, #2). Hippopotamus, with a croc/alligator on her back. Kekiu (TEpli-Aui-Un #5) Frogs.

I’m open to thoughts.

Prayer (Aug Photo Challenge)

17. Prayer. I’m happy with my prayer beads and wear them to work often. The weight of them remind me to check in. I pray through out the day. In the morning on my way to work, on my lunch break, in stressful moments and at night. Keeping in touch with my Gods and Goddesses is important to me.

prayerFind the prompts here.